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Recent content by Orglethorp

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    Dare To Fail

    I don't know if he does think anything of me other than the knowledge that I'm a student in his class who did well in first year. He seems to be a genuinely nice man and he's taken the time to remember my name, so suddenly I feel noticed in a see of students that I've otherwise blended into this...
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    Dare To Fail

    I'm not sure if tutor and professor mean different things in the UK than they do in North America, but a professor (which is what this guy is) stands at the front of a lecture hall and instructs a room full of students, assigns work but has someone else grade it, and has very little to do with...
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    Dare To Fail

    I survived my childhood by shutting stuff out and pretending everything was okay. Unfortunately it seems that my brain has learned that this is a good technique to handle stress of any kind. Over the past 9 years of working my way through PTSD while moving on with my life, studying a million...
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    Childhood Feeling Like Your Childhood Was Taken Away From You?

    I agree, and that's how I feel now, but I'd still never want to repeat it.
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    Childhood Feeling Like Your Childhood Was Taken Away From You?

    I feel this most when people get the "wouldn't it be nice to be kids again" line of idle chatter going. No, it wouldn't be nice.
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    Flashbacks True/false

    I don't believe in false memories, or flashbacks of false memories, but I do concede that memories aren't always completely accurate. I definitely have felt unsure about the validity of the things I remember, possibly because I survived by pretending none of it happened. I get the same way about...
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    Worried

    You definitely have not lied or led him on, and you don't owe him any explanations. If you feel the need to elaborate on what you've told hmm for your own sake, then do so, but you don't have to. It sounds like he understands that he's the first good intimate relationship you've had, and that's...
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    How Do You Wake Up?

    My sleep routine has changed since I moved in with my fiance in September, because we've moved away from buses and only have his truck, so I have to get up with him when he's getting up for work to get dropped off, even though it means I'm up 2-3 hours earlier than necessary. This means we're...
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    Preparing For Motherhood

    I definitely do want to have time at home without working while my children are babies/toddlers, yes. I don't see delaying my degree completion as a huge issue, because this sort of degree doesn't have a set time frame requirement, I already have job prospects for when I'm done, and it's...
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    Preparing For Motherhood

    Thanks for your concern, I definitely understand where you're coming from. I know this will be my own mother's concern as well, when pregnancy announcements get made. I don't know if you're just taking the mention of university from the first post or if you've read my profile, but just in case...
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    Preparing For Motherhood

    my fiancé and I have decided that we're ready to become parents, so we're "not preventing" at the moment (no birth control + I'm tracking my cycles and taking a prenatal vitamin, but nothing too crazy). I'm excited, but this of course brings some worries I've had for years back to the surface...
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    Supporter My Wife Is An Incest Survivor

    Angler, my heart really went out to you reading that. I can only imagine how hard all of that is to admit, and I've got a pretty good idea how hard it is to keep quiet. You know what I noticed, though? You keep giving your wife a pass. You keep accepting abuse and providing the excuses. It's...
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    Anyone Here Changed Their Birth Name ...

    I've started the process to change my last name twice, from my father's name to my mother's, and both times the amount of follow up work it'll require has stopped me. If you're ready, do it! Personally, since I have no problem with my first name, I'm just going to wait for marriage at this...
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    Not Understanding Others When They Speak

    This happens to me as well, but it's not just in loud or crowded places. Usually, but not always. Sometimes I can't distinguish the words at all, and other times it's like I have a delay between hearing and processing. I'll get it eventually, but usually not before I've asked the other person to...
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    Poll Have You Had To Abandon Any Nicknames Because Of Trauma?

    Like the original poster, I'm also a Jennifer who gave up "Jenny" after developing PTSD because it's a stressor. I can handle any variation of Jennifer except that. I prefer Jenna or simply Jen. My family continued to call me Jenny for over a decade. The ones who were around me most adopted...
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