Recent content by Over the rainbow

I'm not whiner, iv been happily single for 3 years. But sometimes, I feel like an outcast. I meet a man, and then find something wrong before the guy can even get a date. I have so many red flags that no man can add up. Protection I suppose. But deep down, I wish I wasn't scared anymore, I...

Why am I so angry? Today I woke up completely angry at nothing, and everything! I know I have been having dreams about him, some where we are back together, and to me those are nightmares! What is my dream self thinking? I wake up entirely angry. Yesterday I was feeling It coming on, self hating...

I have been stuck in this state for about 6 months. I too used to be fit, organized, and outgoing. I really hate the thought of getting up and doing anything. I recently got a new job after getting laid off from another one, I did everything from my bed it seems. I took care of things that...

It's my favorite verse in the bible.

I push them all away, so why does It hurt when they go?

I am going to put another spin on this one. Iv Been in a relationship with a person who was constantly overruling my decision in front of the kids. Everytime he did it I felt humiliated, like he was being "passive aggressive." And that he put me at the level of the kids when he did this. Not...

I had to block a guy I started dating because he wouldn't take no for an answer, after I found out things about him that are on my red flag list. Luckely I was smart enough to wait and I didn't sleep with him. But he didn't like me telling him I didn't want to hang out anymore, he...

I can really relate to this. I have the same issues in my place. Iv been here over three months now and it seems to be getting better. What really helped me was running a fan, the constant noise drowns out sounds. Just remember every new place has new creaks, groans, and ticks, outside...

@shimmerz thank you, I'm my own worst critic. After hearing I'm stupid (Among other things) for years, I guess I started to believe the things I heard. Got to break the cycle somehow, even if it means me staying alone forever.

Thanks everyone. I have always had a sixth sense about these things and have been going against my gut. He answered me back a couple times in one or two word very methodical answers like he didn't want to say much, it was very very not like him. I told him about my day, which normally he...

The problem with sneaky is I'm pretty much unable to play regular dating games, I'm looking for a best friend, a person I can speak about anything with. I feel like if I have to play "games" and be sneaky it just isn't me. I'm a pretty straight shooter. But have tact if course. But at...

I haven't dated for three years, the PTSD isolated me from everyone. I just started talking to a man and we have hung out a half a dozen times or so now. (No sex yet, I'm trying to get to know him.) I met him at work and he seems like a very nice person, and we chat everyday all day when...

Dearest can opener: I really thought we had a good thing going, I know they told me you were cheap and probably wouldn't stay long, but only 3 months really? You couldn't stay longer than that? At first you were so good to me, slicing right through cans like nobody's business, now my hand is in...

Lost in the words When the days get to long, and the nights are endless, Sleep never comes, only once in a while, Bad dreams invade the mind, and startle the soul Fear has crept into the night, and a release needs to be made, put my pen to paper, so my mind will be at rest, All the...

Very well written. I can really relate.. Your not gray matter, it just feels that way. Gray matter in the brain is essential for survival, so if you are gray matter, you mean everything. Sorry I'm cheesy. I hope you at least smiled at my cheese. :)