"jesus Wept"

[Over the rainbow]

I push them all away, so why does It hurt when they go?

 

[Tinyflame]

Because we know it took them that long to see for themselves & want something different. Which we feel they deserved all along.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

The shortest passage in the bible
John 11:35 Jesus wept

:)

 

[Chincho]

Maybe because no matter how hard we push tham away, deep inside we hope they'll stay.

 

[Over the rainbow]

It's my favorite verse in the bible.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

We do what we think is best for them. It doesn't mean it won't hurt.

 

[Nam]

I push away to see if they come back. That they love me despite all that is wrong. If they can put up with all the ugly inside, then they are for keeps.

 

[Justmehere]

:hug: @Over the rainbow rainbow - I push people away because I'm scared, it hurts because we were not meant to live life completely alone. PTSD stinks. You are not alone.

 

[holdenmonty]

because we care about them and don't really want to push them away but we tend to feel like we need to push them away to protect them from us.

 

[Recovery4Me]

I do not push people away: it is more of a feeling of amputation. The phantom limb still twitches and aches to be a part my life and misses them.

There are times after careful consideration, that my self protection or mental stability from toxic people takes priority...although it is often painful to disengage. Some of those people knew of my PTSD and used it to their advantage to manipulate, tweak me out, bypass boundaries to win. I learned to let go.

It was important for me, to learn along the way, the variances between self sabotaging and self protection. Consider that not all "pushing away" is a bad thing and then there maybe times to reconcile.

I am so sorry that you hurt. Please be gentle to yourself. May you find balance and peace.:hug:'s if you accept.