How Many Of You Are Frozen?

[Underdog]

I'm curious how many of you are dealing with a frozen state, where you just don't want to do anything at all. Also curious how it has changed your life and what you are doing to counteract it. For me, I used to be very fit and active with long lists of daily things I wanted done and I almost always got through those lists and felt real joy and accomplishment on being so active. Now, I find the simplest task hard to even start. I've stopped making lists and must break things into smaller chunks to get anything accomplished. Although I'm starting to feel the trauma is in the past, I still feel stuck and frozen.

 

[Over the rainbow]

I have been stuck in this state for about 6 months.
I too used to be fit, organized, and outgoing. I really hate the thought of getting up and doing anything.
I recently got a new job after getting laid off from another one, I did everything from my bed it seems. I took care of things that had to be done because I'm a parent, I made sure to do things with my daughter, but I was all forced on my part, I simply hated every second,(not of being with her, just the tasks) I have become the great pretender.
My new job keeps me active, I don't think going back to a desk job is good for me, I am walking for 8 hours a day now and I feel like I'm doing a bit better.
Today I must force myself to clean the house and cook, I am waiting for the day it isn't forced.
Your not alone.

 

[Disquieted]

Oh my goodness, yes. I really couldn't explain it before because it just looks like I'm lazy. My house is in shambles, I'm so behind at work, I've lost most of my friends because I don't want to go outside, I'm trying to train for a 5K but I can't make myself run. I shut down in therapy and basically put my head in my knees and hide. I want to do things but this urge to hide is so powerful that sometimes I don't even think of doing something until after the fact. This freeze stuff has got to go. I want my life back. My hubby tells me to let go of the past, I know that. He tells me I missing out on being with him and my kiddos. I know that. My freeze often turns into panic and I can't think or talk or do things. I don't even know how long I've been like this.

 

[ms spock]

Yes I am frozen on and off - have been most of my life.

 

[Shadowofdoubt]

In same boat:

it just looks like I'm lazy. My house is in shambles, I'm so behind at work, I've lost most of my friends because I don't want to go outside, I

A major depressive episode for over a year, have lost my job and my life is a mess. Mid life crisis that is stuck. I am working on it, though. Spring time brings some extra hope. Wishing you all the best. :)

 

[ihateusernames]

Yep, that's been me for the past few years now. I was the same constantly going, going, going, but I became depressed while pregnant with my son, and then just fell apart after he was born and couldn't keep anything together. I believe that stemmed more from resurfacing childhood and early adult-era trauma than typical ppd. Then last summer I became completely paralyzed, I didn't make the connection, but looking back it was right around the time we discovered that he has a severe peanut allergy. I really thought my child was going to die. It was awful. And I feel like I've been in a state of suspended animation ever since. No energy, minimal feelings or emotions, brain just dead...

I started seeing a therapist and then I also started an antidepressant (bupropion) about 5 weeks ago. I also went to my doctor to see if something was physically wrong with me. She found a vitamin deficiency so I've been on prescription supplements, as well. Some combination of those things has helped significantly. I feel like I used to run at about 97%. I dropped down to something more like 2% and now I'm around 35%. 35 is great compared to 2, so I feel like a lot of progress has been made, but still it's nothing like 97.

I don't know if those things would help you, but I hope you find something that will.