Recent content by Pakadlangitok

DO any of you go to a gym? I go to one. It has three branches. After all my trauma and head injuries it is hard to be there now because they started music. They had one branch that was free of it. It is loud and obnoxious and relentless. I wrote them a humiliating letter about trauma and head...

... Good point. I think it is the way no one will connect with me, but if I look closely, they are not connecting with anyone but their phones. Maube it is not me.

I feel the same. I have no mental health insurance. I had a therapist pro bono but they are only like 8 session. I am in abject poverty because you have to be poor in the USA to receive medical care on disability. So the last 6 months, my only goal was not to kill myself. I took hemp oil which...

Never go. I refuse to go to any dr because I cannot stand to be touched. My therapist wrote a letter that if I had to be seen, they cannot touch me or if they have to use gloves. I cannot stand skin to skin. Never.

I dont go because people think I am the weirdo. I never connect to anyone and usually feel God has forgotten me anyway. Before PTSD I did not feel this way

I feel so alone, too. I am not always alone, but I feel so disconnected. It does not help that I am sick and that makes it worse because when you are sick you have to do it alone. But I am glad I have people here who really get it.. . This place helps a lot.

Holy moly. Yes. I never put that into words very well. OMGosh yes. When someone is nice I get confused. When they are mean, I am not. when nice, I do not know how much to be their friend, how much to connect and not cling. I tend to cling emotionally but not physically. Like I can be totally...

OMG. What an idiot!! Really? So moms for millions of years are bad moms because they did not have synthetic vit D to give them thousands of years ago. My Gosh!! How DID Julius Caesar survive???? Or I should say Tolstoy? What a total idiot and you are a GREAT MOM to care about your dear little...

Interesting post! I tend to think it is not good though, because it leaves scars and later on, as other posters said, they are hard to explain AND it can escalate. And of course, it can kill. One of my friends sucided and I often wonder if it was a mistake. I never did a lot of that except...

I do see your point. In fact when I posted, I reconsidered. No, I never had BPD. But one therapist screened me after a very harsh and forceful demanding way of saying I had it before he even knew I was abused. This was a T i saw one day because I was suicidal. He based it ONLY on that!! I was...

OMgosh. Totally. So many therapists dx PTSD victims with BPD which is unfair. They are very different. Marsha Linehan in one of her books said that A LOT of BPD is CAUSED by trauma. So they should scrap the dx of BPD. It has very negative connotations now.

Please keep us posted. I was bit by a dog. Twice. Both not too bad. One was a big dog who nipped me and broke my pants and skin. The owner was shocked! We were walking and he was on a leash. I still recall her screaming, "Cornflake!!" He had never ever done that. Hmmm. But it was OK. THe other...

My brain would ache. Just ACHE. Nothing I could do. Then I go a head injury. Poof. now I cannot ruminate. Yes, I cannot concentrate, either, but I can't ruminate either. Do not know what was best. I only wish it had been a worse head injury so I could not even remember.

This is so odd because it is so me. I hate my name and when people say I cringe. It is a nice name, nothing weird about it. It's like Karen (it is not Karen, just an example). So I started to tell people another name, just as benign. I will say "Maria" . So half the people in my life think I am...

HUGS!! It is so hard to avoid. I went without a computer a whole year toget peace but it did not help because then I was totally isolated.