Recent content by Pixi23

You sound like a good friend of mine. He helped me all he could. Until he couldnt anymore. I was very codependent on him. He saved my life many times. But it is my responsiblity to save myself. I have a toxic family as well. I think the days where he spent the day with me were the most helpful...

Ive already been to a shelter. My fibro was too painful to keep walking up the steps and into the top bunk. I actually got triggered more by the women who did drugs and such in there...dunno why.

So I am moved in with my abusive parents...have been for like 7 months. My paranoia is really bad. I'll take a shower and hear a thud and think my "father" is killing my mother...he has said he would anyway...very gory details...I'll picture how he would kill her it scares me so bad because my...

I feel less lonely with responses like all of you posted. Thank you ! :)

Write letters and never send them. Keep posting on here ?

I am so glad your doing a bit better. I was worried and i dont even know ya. Writing has saved me from horrible horrible nights. I'll be laying in bed, going over and over my triggers, the memories. I feel paralyzed. Most times I work up the courage to roll out of bed and grab paper and a pen. I...

I just stated how much it is going downhill. If i couldve got out...i would have.

Customers at work trigger me. They get irratated and then I get upset. I didnt used to be so senstive to it. How do i block it out ? And no, I cannot financially find another counselar in my area. I have tried. Their financial assitance in the area is limited. I tried a different...

Ive been in a homeless shelter twicein the past year. its the o.ly way. My mom is very helpful. The shelter triggered me more in ways because there were drug addict everywhere. I have chronic pain..been in PT for a year, owe my chiropractor $3,000 and counting..i just cant get ANY job. Ive...

Okay..so all my friends have recently been turning their backs. Due to their own problems. Understandable But now I have NOONE to vent to. I write a lot. That helps me survive. I live with my past abuser and my mother. I am incredibly lonely. I DONT trust counselors because I was admitted into a...

Find an alternative. A red washable marker or a harsh slap of a rubber band will give you that same "Quick Satisfaction" without you having to hide anything. Distraction is the best advice though. Video games help me with not self harming.

I am having an extremely difficult time lately. Disassociation, triggers, insomnia, nightmares, you name it !! So I'm looking for simple advice. So I can make it through the bad days. Thanks !

@Jan 31 , DONT DO IT. THEY ARE NOT WORTH IT. YOU CAN DO THIS !! You already showed amazing strength by getting on here and sharing your story. Reading it comforted me. I feel the same way SO OFTEN. I am triggered by SO MANY things...it's like I am slowly cracking. So I found some glue. My "glue"...

Not yet. i guess ill sign on.

Tried. i dont qualify for nethibg but food stamps. housing waiting list is over a year