Recent content by PoopyPTSD

If you say this usually doesn't happen, I see two things that could fuel it. One, she might have fear where she almost lost you. Fear can make someone want to control. With you, I think you are angry at what happened to you and feel victimized. Also, that you live your life and you almost...

I understand what you are going through completely. That is a huge trigger for me as well. I have been doing EMDR for a very long time and what I have realized is that it usually is a memory that is very hard to emotionally handle, and it's there right in the back of your head along with fear...

Yes, that is molestation. It's more rare for women to molest than men, either that or it's least reported. My mother molested me, but it was out of spite against my dad who had did so as well. Then she started to like it. I think this form of abuse, at least for me, was harder to work...

Believe me mine is Complex..... 6 years off and on EMDR treatment

That's strange, it has worked wonders for me. I wouldn't be where I am at today without EMDR. It can be hard and challenging but the best thing I have ever done for myself. Everything I've read it's mostly positive. The government uses it on war veterans.

Cognitive Behavioral Therapist, (CBT) I would highly recommend one that uses EMDR. A PTSD dog, is a service dog that knows when you are triggered and will do something to ground you back.

Or go somewhere safe, lol, that does seems more convenient

Try to see this dissociation as a friend who was there to protect you when your little mind as a child didn't know what to do...... That's what it is... Your protector

Maybe you feel closer to your husband, safer. Maybe at your therapist you know you are going to have to talk about things you don't want to, maybe she represents a authority figure..... A mom, teacher etc. I disassociate selectively like that. No, it's not your fault because your body and mind...

You need to ground yourself. I hope you are seeing a therapist. The only way I would know of, if you can't do it yourself.... Is a PTSD dog.

Thank you, be proud for stepping up and doing what's right! :tup:

I know. I get these urges I wish I could cut it out of me..... Horrible I know. Sometimes it feels like a growth I can't get rid of. Like ivy crawling all over my face, lol lol lol

Hey there, know exactly how you feel. Then I hate myself because I hate myself and it's stupid to do that. Like a big circle.

I think what is the hardest for me. Is after my dad did what he did. It was caught by her. For years I was severely abused and treated as the "other women". She always did a lot of medical things to me. Then she said what was good for him was good for her and started doing inappropriate...

Thank you for your support, you have helped me so much already