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I relate completely. I had a feeling something happened. I would obsess over watching movies and shows about CSA. It was seeing the victims be heard. I always had weird shame and anxiety around s*x with my husband. One day at 38 I was laying in bef after and my body froze. I couldn't move. I...

For me its a number of things. Body freeze, where everything stops and I can't move is the worst. Then there is willful times, where i purposely decise to check out because im in a situation that is highly triggering. And then other times its like when in a movie they are showing the world...

Thank you. This is sort of the conclusion I came to yesterday as I felt my brain was going nuts. Writing down facts that I know to be true. Truths, feelings and beliefs that I do not question. I need to deal with those because they are tangible. The rest has to sit or ill loose my mind.

We went back to a hard target yesterday. Last time it left me disassociating etc. We took a break and worked on " smaller" targets and that helped. Now we are back on this one and I started off with pretty high stress about it. It's a target I have fragmented memories. I keep trying to put...

I have been through something similar. I highly recommend reading or researching " The Body Keeps the Score". I always thought I might have be sexually abused and then oneday I started having body flashbacks. Horrible ones. But no real context. I'd avoided therapy but finally went to an EMDR...

Thanks for sharing!! That's hopeful!

I guess I'll see how it goes and then be honest I experience unwanted side effects. I hate trying new stuff lol

So I'm supposed to start taking lexapro to ease anxiety with the wellbutrin I've been taking for a year now. The wellbutrin has helped my depression, energy levels and focus. I really like it and feel it's helped but I need help with my anxiety. I know wellbutrin is sometimes prescribed to...

I had a similar thoughts just yesterday. The flashbacks get more real and everything I remember about my younger life seems like a totally different life/person. It's like things keep coming and I'm reliving them and it's insane. How can it all be true AND I didn't remember it?? It's incredible

Yes. It's funny how the brain works and sorts things out! Time often gives clarity. Trust the process

It did end up coming for me. A totally different memory. I still can't fully believe it but I've learned to trust my brain and let it heal as it needs too. I believed it and now I'm starting to heal.

A good therapist. EMDR has been doing wonders for me. I used to freeze up etc too. It's gotten better and better.

First off, trust your brain and your body. Maybe he did or maybe he didn't. But there is a reason your brain and body respond as they do. I've found, if you let it, the answers come with time. They may not be exactly what you think. I started therapy because of PTSD and I'm still learning my...

Welcome! This forum has been very helpful for me! Reading others stories helped me realize that I wasn't crazy and helped me understand myself and my PTSD. I hope you find some help here too!