Recent content by Rainbow87

“I'm the fault/the problem.” I feel that you are being a bit hard on yourself here. Sometimes everything can go wrong. It doesn’t necessarily mean you are to blame for ALL of it. It makes sense to feel that way if nothing is going right & maybe blaming yourself gives you a sense of control...

Hi Ree78, I understand how this feels. Depression is an evil bitch to say the least. It tells us so many lies: I am worthless, It is my fault, I will never get better, I should just kill myself, nobody cares, what is the point ...etc. You are not alone. It does get better. I am still...

I can relate~my body responded when it happened. I am pretty sure I passed out. I was not penetrated- I was groped and he forced me to touch his genitalia. So I mostly remember the feeling. & I also know that I had a fantasy of sleeping with the perpetrator to gain back control. It doesn’t...

Hey guys, I do not think anything happened when I was a child. I did wonder that for awhile, but there is nothing I can recall. I did have a lot of issues with coming out as a lesbian however. I had anorexia & it was a very dark period. So although this may not seem like a traumatic experience...

Thank you, I think at the time I got into the car thinking it was an Uber & I do not think I wouldve let this person give me a massage if I was not intoxicated. I am just upset at myself for even getting into a situation like that.

I waa diagnosed because of this experience

Hi Friday, I have been diagnosed with PTSD. I think it was mostly the fact that someone tried to have sex with me without my consent when i was incapacitated. I could not give my consent with how much alcohol I had drank. I never made out with the person. Just getting groped and even being in...

Hello Ziter, I can relate to what you posted in that at times I hate all men from getting sexually assaulted and then from being sexually harrassed for many years while being a server. Even though I logically know not all men are that way. I can only imagine what it would have been like if I...

Just because I was not raped does not mean it wasn’t sexual assault. It could have been a lot worse I agree. But someone putting your hand on their genitalia without your consent is sexual assault. I really don’t think there is a hierarchy of what causes ptsd & any form of sexual abuse can cause it.

Thank you both for your reply:). It means a lot. I think it is some sort of coping mechanism that if this didn’t happen I wouldn’t have to deal with it or something. Plus not remembering everything from that night & just parts of it made me question it as well. I know I wouldn’t just go into the...

Hi everyone, First of all thanks to all of the posters. Reading them makes me feel less alone. About 7 months ago I went out with a group of friends and I got pretty drunk. I remember getting upset with my friends and I left the bar crying. I was determined to go to a different gay bar by...