Recent content by Runlola72

I have always had a tough time with eye contact. My daughter has Aspergers and I suspect my dad does, so I suspect I may have some traits as well. It's especially hard with my therapist. But after meeting with him for a year, and him never making an issue of it, it feels like some weeks it's...

Haha glad you had a giggle! :)

Wow I completely relate. I am obsessed with my T too. He's so gentle and loving. I imagine him reading me children's books and did manage to confess that to him. I also imagine him tucking me in, and I would love to nap while he watched over me. Unfortunately I've also had less than innocent...

Thank you.... I like music but think I need the relationship first before the music resonates. I will take a listen to her music down the road if I ever get there/feel inspired. I appreciate your reply :)

Where on your body are they? You said joints but upper, lower body? Did you take any medication that might have caused a drug reaction? Has anything helped? Oatmeal bath, hydrocortisone cream, Zyrtec?

Thanks Gia, I know a lot of people feel this which is why I can't discount it as a possible mode of healing. It just feels so foreign I don't know how to start. My therapist is very kind and has been encouraging me but never pushing so this effort might be slow going.

Thanks very much ladee

Thank you ... :)

Thanks so much Lola

PS the "fooling everyone" title references the fact that if you saw me, I look ok. I'm good at pretending when I am out. But that's rare that I am out except for school. Anyway, people who know me don't really know me I guess

Hi all, I guess I'm here for support from people who get it. I'm in my 40's, married, kids. Never quite been able to keep a job, yet perpetual student. In grad school now. I'm pathetic and graduate in May and have no doubt I will fail at my new career. I have been in therapy for a year with this...

My dad left my mom and me poor as dirt when he took off when I was 3. We were on food stamps for a while, lived in a very questionable apartment complex where I have some traumatic memories. After she remarried, we were upgraded to lower middle class, then middle class by the time I was in high...

I let myself email t about ten times (rare).

Finding out today that I will need another lumpectomy. Feeling like I can't move. T says it's the freeze mechanism and that people who have an inflamed survival instinct use it sometimes when they are dealing with tough situations. He said I should talk to my survival instinct.... I guess let it...

Thank you Lola... I'm on weightwatchers so I'll take the hug :)