Recent content by Samantha_38

Correct, yes. And somewhat working on this. I have a list of trauma. A very long list... different perpetrators, different situations, different types of abuse. Ultimately all stemming from abusive/neglectful parenting, but still different. Unfortunately that makes PE of one event not transfer...

After intercourse/intimacy with my significant other of almost 14 years, I lay awake feel fearful, frozen, almost unable to move. Does this happen to anyone else? Any suggestions for how to help it? It's only been recently that I've been able to identify that this is what is happening. I lived...

"Control factor" on your part? Like you were seeking control? Or on their part?

Just want to say that I may have to keep telling myself this over and over until it sticks!

I've been here and experienced the same thing. Being lifeless for the boyfriend often did nothing to stop the trauma. Fighting or not, he wanted sex and he got it. However, me doing that in front of my dad would make him so angry, and maybe provoke a very hard final blow but could at times then...

Did you ever purposefully make your abuser mad? Did you give in and just let them hurt you? Did you decide you wanted what they were doing instead of fighting? Instead of leaving? I was abused at home from very young. Mostly physical abuse, but there was some other types sometimes too. As an...

I very much agree. It was very helpful!

I've been doing prolonged exposure for awhile now. It's been bringing up increased urges for self harm and substance use for most of that time. However those urges have been building and getting worse. I used to cut daily, or more. I just did. It's just been a part of my day since before I can...

Thank you for that response @Friday it is exactly what I needed. I do know, somewhere deep down, that it wasn't me. Its just hard to accept when it happened so many times and yet there are others whom avoid it all together.

I was sexually assaulted by a previous pyschologist. I was 17, he was, well 'old'. I was admitted for a suicide attempt and he was the psych. It's kind of a complicated trauma that happened in the middle of other complicated traumas. I've been working on it in my current therapy however and my...

Oofta, that's a tough one. My T would tell you that this is typical of our relationship and something we need to work on. I honestly feel that this might be more than just that though. When I first told him very very long ago we were both young as well. His response was that of many hormonal...

The first time I was raped was almost 18 years ago. I was in a relationship with this man, though I was 12 and he was 17 initially. I was raped on my 13th birthday and he was 18 at that time. The relationship and future assaults went on for several years after that. Most consistently for 2...

This is me when it comes to my kids. My kids have so many complex medical needs and we've been through a lot. Times where 2 of them are sick with one is hospital and other in ER. I can be so level headed in those situations. Even with the caregiver PTSD I experience. Its like all of my...

I've had PTSD for 10+ years due to ongoing childhood trauma of multiple types by multiple people. I then seemed to add "caregiver" trauma to the list after my son nearly died shortly after birth and then has also had many medical complications for several years. Now, I was recently hospitalized...

Yes I do have therapy. We haven't talked a ton about this specifically. Honestly it seems like there is so much to work through that we never get any further.