Recent content by saraemerald

So this is a thing. You work consistently hard towards recovery. It's what you want. You want to confidently prove that no matter what you went through from your dysfunctional family, you will rise above and be successful. Then when you get there because you believed you could, you ruin it.

Thank you so much for your reply. I want ME back sooo much!

My parents abused me as a child. Jehovah's Witnesses in my congregation tried babysitting me a lot to keep me away from my parents. They were told not to report the abuse because of the religion. But, What I didn't realise growing up in this religion, is that it's teachings are abusive

Yes i am seeing therapist

I just don't understand why i broke my standards when i left and became very self destructive. I'm so confused. I used to have high self esteem and felt connected and loved life even despite some crazy hardships. Arrgghh! I used to have way more control over my brain than I do now and it's both...

I feel like I lost my sense of humanity when I left this religion/cult I don't know where to go from here.

I grew up a Jehovah's Witness. Everyone else has grown up in a different belief system. Mine was therapeutic for me growing up because it seemed better than my insane family I grew up with. I followed this religion/cult to a tea because I truly thought it had something amazing to offer. It...

I grew up as a JW. I had some awesome ppl help me out and try their best to protect me from my parents(abusers) (I will mention, I now feel bad for my parents knowing one of them experienced abuse growing up. I really thought they had protected me from the consequences of abuse through trying to...

I'm still here. Um yay!!!... I'm gonna make this brief. I've been through WAY too much since leaving the security of the cult that I left. Plus, I went from chaste, virgin girl to crazy excult member and now I have no self respect. Anyone relate?!

I decided to rise above my abuse from a young age and was proud of it by becoming a very dedicated cult member. (a Jehovah's Witness). I was very dedicated and thought of I followed all of 'God's'/cult rules, I would be saved, etc. Obviously, it doesn't work that way. But for some reason, for...

I am doing EMDR for trauma. And my shame is coming from this: I knew how to face my intrusive thoughts before but since this time, I thought a thought on purpose, like I was texting god and his holy spirit, I couldn't let out go because this was different, so I beat myself up thinking something...