Recent content by SeekingAfrica

Regular 7.5h. Dreamed something off I think(not a nightmare but leaving bad feeling when I wake still,like a worry)- but grounded in my morning routine and now I can't even remember what it was 😌

Lord of the Rings

More and more students being referred to me because my ESL students really love me(and have started improving their grades consistently)- it's heartwarming.

Tidied my wardrobe, need to take out summer clothes.

A bit low. Like a bit more disconnected than lately. Pushing through though.

First off, I'm really sorry you're struggling. But let me just say 2 things. One, I'm 37 and spend a lot of the last decade feeling like this and got to my lowest point in 2024. I had gone to college and had the college experience, I just messed up a lot after and ended up beyond broke and in...

Yes, actually. For many years, fireworks. I have heard that can be a thing for veterans or I suppose if related to bombs makes sense... but for me for many years it made no sense. Anyway, funny thing is, I spend a year and a half making changes in my life that gradually pulled me out of at least...

Oh boy. Really did not think this would spark the debate it has. I see both sides of the coin, and I suppose that as someone seeing only the threads I post that could be fair assesment, but that is rarely the full picture. @Survivor3 I both understand what you are saying an I don't. Am I...

I am so beyond okay I no longer remember okay. I keep thinking I can't do worse, but as it turns out, you always CAN. There are always 10 crises at the same time and I have a handle of 2 or 3 at the same time. It's just never a good moment for this, but there is certainly a worse one. And having...

I really need a hug today. I have no idea how to be present today or this week at all. And it will have consequences if I don't. I'm scared.

Thank you! That is super useful. I read something about antihistamines on google but had no idea if it actually works. It's also not expensive (since it's meant for allergies). I'm not saying it's ideal, but in a pinch would be useful to have a tool until I have an alternative. I found the exact...

I know people tend to be very divided on medication. I tend to be optimistic. I think of it as a tool you use to function better while you work on improving. The first one I took didn't do enough, but it did enough to get me to be calm enough to actually make improvements in my life. Later on, I...

I feel like I am caught in the catch 22. I have admitted I need help, but before I did I had to cruise on so little for so long that my budget is wrecked. Which means every week my budget is killed by debt I can't postpone. If I were able to start medication, in 4-8 weeks possibly I could start...

I don't even have the energy to say it. But something hard is happening this week that may extend months- but the worst is the coming 2 weeks. And it's already serious enough without additions on it. And the anxiety is already peak. But then, trying to work through it, it actually triggered...

I just feel like I've been on this journey forever and I've just dug myself deeper into a hole. And every time it feels like it can't be worse, somehow I manage. So all the positive just drowns into that. Like by the time I'm actually better I may get myself into actual legal trouble or actual...