Recent content by SeekingAfrica

Yes, actually. For many years, fireworks. I have heard that can be a thing for veterans or I suppose if related to bombs makes sense... but for me for many years it made no sense. Anyway, funny thing is, I spend a year and a half making changes in my life that gradually pulled me out of at least...

Oh boy. Really did not think this would spark the debate it has. I see both sides of the coin, and I suppose that as someone seeing only the threads I post that could be fair assesment, but that is rarely the full picture. @Survivor3 I both understand what you are saying an I don't. Am I...

I am so beyond okay I no longer remember okay. I keep thinking I can't do worse, but as it turns out, you always CAN. There are always 10 crises at the same time and I have a handle of 2 or 3 at the same time. It's just never a good moment for this, but there is certainly a worse one. And having...

I really need a hug today. I have no idea how to be present today or this week at all. And it will have consequences if I don't. I'm scared.

Thank you! That is super useful. I read something about antihistamines on google but had no idea if it actually works. It's also not expensive (since it's meant for allergies). I'm not saying it's ideal, but in a pinch would be useful to have a tool until I have an alternative. I found the exact...

I know people tend to be very divided on medication. I tend to be optimistic. I think of it as a tool you use to function better while you work on improving. The first one I took didn't do enough, but it did enough to get me to be calm enough to actually make improvements in my life. Later on, I...

I feel like I am caught in the catch 22. I have admitted I need help, but before I did I had to cruise on so little for so long that my budget is wrecked. Which means every week my budget is killed by debt I can't postpone. If I were able to start medication, in 4-8 weeks possibly I could start...

I don't even have the energy to say it. But something hard is happening this week that may extend months- but the worst is the coming 2 weeks. And it's already serious enough without additions on it. And the anxiety is already peak. But then, trying to work through it, it actually triggered...

I just feel like I've been on this journey forever and I've just dug myself deeper into a hole. And every time it feels like it can't be worse, somehow I manage. So all the positive just drowns into that. Like by the time I'm actually better I may get myself into actual legal trouble or actual...

Relief Remedy is expensive here... well, for me anyway. I'll look in the rest. I know the relief it temporary, but at times my anxiety is so high, that to do any of the actions required to improve and heal, I first need to be calmer... sort of a catch 22 thing. The first time I ever really...

Is there anything that worked for you with panic attacks specifically? I've tried Xanax before but I don't have recipe currently. So I was wondering if there is anything natural that could help enough (compared to 0.5mg Xanax for example).

I am really not okay. I'm so not okay all my needs are dysregulated and not-functional that most of the time I don't even know where to begin. Mental health? Home adjustment isn't enough, insurance isn't an option or helping. I try adjusting habits, using AI and books and youtube and so on to...

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Found a free budgeting course and a bunch of great videos. I am slowly learning and reflecting on the past few years.

Oooh! That is one that happened to me a few times. Or something similar, anyway. I have been between 2 countries for a decade and a half. In a few super distressed moments, I would be somewhere outside, and I would look around and either get confused about which of the 2 countries I am in or get...