Recent content by Sitstillsmilesilent

I'm sorry you always know this pain and frustration, I try to take peaceful time out to try and reconstruct my way of thinking on something by painting, yoga, ted talks, colouring in, walks in nature, I just cant get over the perception of myself distilled by PTSD of severe abuse and CPTSD of...

No, I've had volunteer counselling, but I just dont feel it helps saying the same things over again and they just sit there not saying anything and I mostly end up acting like I am happy by the end just because it seems like that's what they want, for me to just act okay so it doesnt have to be...

I was always gaslit for everything I felt and the physical pain of my CNS attacking itself all day every day due to traumas being ignored and being told to just work harder to plough through mental health and keep a big smile on and tell a different story all the time. Now I've finally escaped...

Anyone else experience severe abuse within a family and then wonder why you seem to push absolutely anyone and everything beneficial to yourself away, majority of the time I cant help destroying anything good as more excuse to kill myself but in the small pieces of respite in my self destruction...

I feel like my relationship is straining, its feels like theres no romance and because of traumatic circumstances and the vicious exile from manipulative parents, we took on debts and rent and things quite early on. Recently I've been feeling like my trauma is creating a massive rift on the...

Thank you so much, it's very true how simple it can be to ensure a child has healthy formative years, but we just didnt have normal mothers unfortunately. I've heard of that book, it sounds really helpful and I definitely need to read. I've been recommended 'Mothers who cant love', but have...

Hi Coco It's so awful hearing your story, you deserved a mother who put you first always and who cared for you, your opinions, your hobbies and every aspect of you even if it's very different to her. I dont know whether this is helpful, ignore me if so, but have you researched narcissitic...

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