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If you can, tell your therapist this. He can reassure you, and having it be a topic to discuss, maybe even dissect and look at it from different angles, could help a lot. If you can't say it, then maybe write it down and if your parts are ok with it, hand it to him in your session. I've found...

I have such a hard time sharing with my therapist. It's so hard to say the words. I freeze up and physically brace for danger any time I have the really bad memories come up. I often dread going into the therapy room, not because of my therapist, he's great, and he's safe. But because I know...

Yes, I have been through this. I had to have a total hysterectomy (done vaginally). I made sure my surgery team knew about my CPTSD and SAs. I asked the nurse to give me something before they wheeled me back to surgery to "knock me out." I told them I didn't want to know what was going on. They...

Yes, I've had many times that I've self harmed days in a row. I'll scratch the scabs off and keep the injury there longer because that helps too. There's the shame, embarrassment, and self hatred involved, but still I do it, repeatedly. Then I'll overcome it for a while and fight not to do it...

It's impossible to talk about this with others that don't understand. No one knows except my therapist, and he is really good about it. He knows it's not suicide, and that it's a coping mechanism. I was really struggling tonight. I had a bad week, and today was particularly bad.

This makes sense to me too. I've struggled for many years as well. It's only been a little while since I last cut. Maybe 3 months, but before that it was probably a year or more. I feel the shame and guilt afterward, but I like the pain and marks/cuts afterward. I don't know if that makes sense...

She asked for space, so give her that. That means don't contact her, don't ask her questions, leave her alone until your date to reconnect and communicate. If you violate that space, it will feel like a violation to her and that she can't trust you. I know this is hard and horrible for you, but...

My therapist has asked me what I need or what helps me and over time we've discovered together what works. For me, breathing is my best go to, but when I'm disassociating (I actually do this a lot in therapy), it's hard for me to do anything or to respond. My therapist waits, gives me some...

One big, long nightmare. I was back in that bad place. 😞

Hi Sophiem121 I relate to this a lot. "trauma-versaries" will kick your ass. I have a lot of them (I have CPTSD), and often my body and anxiety will start acting up before I even realize what's going on or what the date is. This is normal. It sucks. I try to use grounding techniques when it...

There's so much, and it's all so, so bad. Just scrolling IG is dangerous now and impossible to get away from it.

I'm praying for you Tanishq, for God's intervention in bringing the right helpers and supporters to you. I plead the blood of Jesus over your mind, spirit, and body for strength, healing, and comfort, in Jesus' name!

Hi and welcome to the forum! Nothing to be ashamed of. I self harm and punish myself by hurting myself.

Yes. This exactly. This is what I do to make it through what I call the rough times. I also bury it in my head. I have a lot of experience with burying all of the bad stuff. It's been a go to coping mechanism for a very long time. It doesn't work well, but it gets me through some stuff for a...