Recent content by super_saiyan

Thank you for the links.

Until recently I was receiving specialist DID/trauma therapy for the first time, since being lost in the mental health system being incorrectly treated for almost 6 years. However, they have now deemed me too 'high risk' to do the work as an outpatient and have discharged me. They have...

I went through a stage of self-harm a lot of years back, but that was very complicated and I don't think even that was completely a conscious active choice. I am trying to understand dissociation and have recently been given the label of DID. I try not to read too much about it, but understand...

I am trying to process what you have said. I have absolutely no conscious thoughts of wanting to hurt myself. Self-harm is never something I have struggled with. I am not aware of any part of me that wants to act violently towards myself. I can't control the dissociation and I can't induce it.

Hey. Thanks for your response. How do I communicate with parts? I have heard of Khiron house - I emailed them but they said they only take private patients and it would need to be self-funded, so that's out of the question for me. Have looked into NHS commissioned places but they are few and far...

@Ragdoll Circus, thank you for these suggestions. I have been setting alarms to go off every two hours through the night to try to startle me, but I haven't even been hearing them.... Difficult thing is that I live in shared house with people I really don't deal well with so is hard to implement...

They have tried to. I don't really have anybody I can talk to, which is why I post on here. Only just started therapy so still trying to build trust. Hate to be suggestive within sessions, don't know how to ask them for specific help. There's nobody to watch over me; I try to stay as grounded...

Nothing happened. Was kind of hoping this would be taken out of my hands, but they have decided that I am ok. The community team are not trauma-informed at all and see this as typical self-harming behavior. My therapist understands more and is concerned but ultimately she doesn't have the power...

Thanks for replies. They are holding a professionals meeting on Tuesday to see what to do with me - whether to section me etc. Does anybody know of any trauma-informed inpatient wards in England?

I am being assessed under the mental health act today. Looking likely that I will be sectioned. This will make it 100x worse as acute units are not trauma-sensitive and do not deal with dissociative symptoms. I am absolutely terrified but powerless now.

I do this during particularly bad flashbacks. It is a reenactment of what I am experiencing - take my clothes off fast because it will hurt less.

Sorry to post again but I really need help. This morning I have found that I have carved crucifix symbols into my stomach area. This is getting out of hand. On the weekend I was found on a crossbridge above a motorway. Don't think I had the intention of jumping or anything but my mind is...

I wish I could go here. I am in England and I would never get funding for this.

In England I don't think we have any specialist trauma units. I know there's one in Scotland but I would never get the funding for that. Am going to spend the day walking in nature, try to clear my mind and hopefully make this state stop.

Because I used to self-harm consciously.