Recent content by Sweethellishlove

I called some other therapist but all were booked on patients with my insurance, so I ended up calling my T again she was free when I called so I talked to her for a bit. I think she thought I was mentally further along then she thought, I have a tendency for people to think I'm really well put...

Yeah I'm going to call today. I just feel like she's going to pressure me though and I really hate pressure. I haven't built enough trust with her yet and it just shocks me that she wants me to do all of this after 4 sessions when I told her specifically that I never talked about my child hood...

Yeah I couldn't imagine being super nice to people when they clearly don't deserve it. But then you get the label of being a bitch. I'm just like well at least I will say it to your face instead of behind your back. But if someone says something to me to my face, I will go home and cry about it...

Thanks pure, I think the hardest part for me is she wants me to read my trauma every day until I go see her next. So every day I am supposed to relive in...for the next f*cking 7 days. Day 1 I already hit myself hyper ventillated and was sobbing non-stop for like 2 hours. I can't go the next 6...

Inner resources my ass I don't have any inner resources haha. I'm sensitive too except I have no problem telling people how it is, which makes a lot of people pissed off. Wish I was more sensitive to others, but I'm pretty harsh because I guess people piss me off. It's really confusing because...

Going to even see if a trauma specialist is in my network. Hopefully so would be nice if someone could be like "this is what's wrong with you." I've been told i had mild depression, to major depression, to bi polar, to borderline, to PTSD, to omg your just f*cking crazy. (the last one is my...

What's a trauma specialist do they just diagnose you for more then PTSD or just that?

It's the worst feeling not being able to lose weight. I go from binge eating to complete starvation. I will lose 60 pounds in 3 months but then gain it all back by binge eating. I'm pregnant now so I've just been trying to maintain and not starve or binge because it would be bad for the...

I wish I knew the answer to your question because I'm going through the same thing as you and have been for years. I guess we are ahead of the game a bit because we know our way of thinking is irrational...but what can we do about it? I try thinking about other things or kind of stepping back...

I like constancy as well. I guess because everything else is so unstable about my life. It's nice to have that one person that's always the same, so when there is a change it's like what the f*ck? I don't need any more instability you are supposed to be a rock. I'm not big on change anyway...

Thank you all so much. I feel like my feelings are validated now. I just was like maybe this is how they do things, and I just don't know it. I'm not sure if I should call her and ask her to drop this program it's not working for me and help me with coping skills...but right now I don't have a...

I think you are on track just got derailed for a bit just got to get back on. Maybe like you said he was having something personal going on, which should never effect how he treats his patients. Being a doctor or a therapist your patients are number 1 as soon as you get into the office.

Yeah she didn't check to see if I had any coping mechanism which the way I cope is either by hurting myself or drinking. I went to an institution once and you know they teach you about meditation and things like that but my dad got me out of there as quickly as he could so nothing ever really...

I have had a lot of trouble sleeping since doing therapy again. Been going to bed around 2-3 then waking up around 5-6 then going back to sleep waking back up around 8-9 and then being up all day. maybe once a week i can sleep through the night. It's been pretty terrible. Dream wise, been having...

Oh yes I have experienced it. Actually today she was like what number session is this? I'm like really? Isn't it your job to know? Why the hell are you asking me? Also sometimes re-asking questions. Sometimes I would rather them write during the session and read it later rather then repeating...