Recent content by SwordsPandaGirl

Sorry if this is posted in the wrong place, I wasn't sure where to put it. Before I was diagnosed with PTSD a few years back I went though a denial stage. Denying what had happened in my past and that all the abuse did not happen. That's when good old PTSD struck me with a vengeance because I...

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Aww thank you @Muttly im glad my blanket comes with a cute doggy :)

I'll be in the quiet room underneath blankets whilst cuddling a teddy bear and sobbing quietly until this horrendous holiday passes. My inner child is a mess and can't handle this time of year.

"Things will get better, it takes time." I didn't believe them at the time lol Like you said, I wanted it better now and not tomorrow haha. what can I say, i'm stubborn and want it now lol

@anthony I guess I have a lot to work on, especially the channeling anger as I don't think I've ever done that before. Thank you for your advice and taking the time to help me out :hug:

@anthony I know you don't mean anything nasty but what you have said, or atleast I hope not :( I think being angry at him does help. It's better than blaming myself, which I used to do often (and try not to anymore). I'm not trying to direct my anger at anyone here and I am very sorry if it has...

I feel like im suffocating. I can't think forward because it feels like there is nothing for me, no one I can reach out to. I feel like I am a disgrace of a person no matter what I do, I will never find happiness or acceptance. I hate that I don't know who I am, what I like or anything. It is...

@Philosopher108 Thank you for your kind words. @rainy_daze no I live alone :( I have/ am atm using a hotline. I'm not sure what brings me comfort anymore :( thanks for trying to help me everyone. I really do appreciate it. I just can't handle this feeling anymore :( It feels like there is...

Thanks for the replies everyone. I just feel so broken :( I'm sorry that you understand this pain. No one should feel this pain. The only way I can describe it is as if something is crushing my lungs and I'm trying to keep fighting it and breathing but it just keeps crushing them further...

I don't even know where to start.. I have been avoiding the forum (I hope you all can forgive me) because I have been spiraling down hill. Things were getting bad and I felt I couldn't handle anything. I didn't want to get out of bed, shower, eat etc let alone come on here because It just felt...

Thanks everyone for your help and guidance. I have began taking the medication (for about 2 weeks now) and have noticed an improvement. Im really sorry for not having thanked you all sooner but I am struggling a lot, especially when it comes to speaking to others (which has been one of the main...

I have been prescribed Citalopram 20mg and was wondering if anyone on here has/is taking this medication? I'm apprehensive about beginning this medication as I have been told by my doctor it is addictive and there seem to be many side effects (which I read on the leaflet). If anyone could...

I'm at a point where I need to make a decision about my future, whether to go back home after my degree and get a job in accountancy (which I find too stressful) or to go down the teaching root. I'm working on my application but keep pancaking a lot about it, I don't know if I'd make a good...

@Jnean It's a bit of both, im hurting over the abuse suffered in the past as well as other stress factors in my life atm. You're right, being alone makes it that much harder and I find myself alone now. This is mainly due to being back at University (I live by myself) and I only come into...