Recent content by Taylormade73

Hi, thanks for responding. I have thought of ways to bring this up to my family (brothers) but haven’t come up with anything yet. If they even knew that I talked about it in the first place it would ruin our relationship.

When I was about 11 I was kicked out of the foster home I’d been living in since about the age of eight after attempting to kill myself. Over those three years I was physically, and emotionally abused by my foster mom, and repeatedly raped by my foster dad who at one time had been a pastor...

I came home from work today and needed to sleep so I set my alarm for an hour or so. I had this weird dream that I was a little girl about 7 or 8 and I was with all of my older brothers who were adults sitting around a table outside. There was nothing else around, just us. My oldest...

Thank you all for sharing

Hi, yes I struggle with making decisions all the time! It’s very frustrating. I also can relate to doing what everyone wants... I’m curious as to whether or not you have read any books regarding co-dependency? One of the first things I learned in recovery was “ make your yes’s mean yes, and...

I wasn’t raised in a cult but I was placed in a foster home for about three years with foster parents who used the Bible, and God as an excuse to beat me, and commit other forms of abuse against me and my brother. My foster dad was a former pastor who had to step down after being exposed as a...

So I went to therepy today and finally shared my timeline from group with my therapist. I’ve been putting it off for a long time, I always feel insecure about how much I need to share, whether or not someone will think I’m disgusting because of my past behaviors. Anyway, while we were going...

So yesterday one of my co workers who happens to be the sister in-law of my boss commented on something I was saying to my floor nurse and she did it in a way that felt like she was yelling at me, or getting overly defensive. She has always been one to be overly loud and abrasive and this...

Thank you for sharing this information..in completely facinated :)

I hope you dont mind but I'd like to try some of those tricks... The mint thing might work for me in therepy maybe. I think its so awesome that you come up with a plan ahead of time. I also display physical symptoms like shivering.. Its pretty bad in therepy but after I'm done I sit in my cat...

My siblings and I are fairly close, but at the same time there is still alot of disconnect. We dont talk about the past much especially with me and my youngest brother.. Hes 2 yrs older then me and we experienced alot of the same abuse growing up...the older boys cant relate because they could...

Wow...Thank you all for responding, I appreciate all of your feed back

Do u ever get angry with yourself for not being able to get over your past? For me most of it happened so long ago. I know that logically the only way through it is to deal with it head on but but I feel like I’m just complaining

I’m an introvert so I can only handle groups of people for a short time then I need a quiet space. When I find myself in a group I tend to be a wall flower, I’m terrified that someone might actually want to talk to me, I imagine a giant spotlight directed right at me and all eyes are focused on...

I work with the elderly and it surprises me how many of them still miss their mom or dad... I just wish it would go away. I don’t want to be 80 or 90 and still thinking about this stuff all the time.