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I'm like this.Physically incapable of discussing it head on.He tried asking if I could just tell him in what category we were going before I gave him the link to my introduction post here, and I tried, but started to hyperventilate.It's just SOOOO compartimentalized.

My brother abused me for many years, and yet I can only remember 3 or 4 events, and even those VERY difficultly.. So I'd say it's quite possible as you were even younger than me that you just don't remeber it. The weird sexualisation at a young age, getting arroused of stuff you shouldn't even...

Not really, we have a couch but I shouldn't sleep on it due to back issues, and neither should he really, it's a good couch for sitting but atrocious for sleeping.We don't have free rooms or anything, our house is packed. And I must say I would feel a bit "guilty" for abandoning him by sleeping...

Not sure if it's the right place, @mods feel free to move it. A couple of months ago I discovered my husband masturbating next to me, to porn in our bed, while he knew I was awake! I was even talking to him! Please do not come with the masturbation is normal, yaddi yaddi ,.. It's about a) the...

Yes! Exactly that. Even down to the weird twitching in public

oh wow thx all, this post wasn't only snowed under by the forum but by me as well -.- gj But thanks neverless

Hi, I too was abused by my brother so no, unfortunately you are not alone in that.But fortunately you have come to the right place.Good luck and welcome

Masturbation from a young age, fantasizing about my teachers coercing me to do stuff,being repelled by even the insinuation of physical attention from someone the moment I think they actually mean it and left feeling not attractive (in any way ) when they don't.Messed up really.Isn't it called...

I of course can't know whether you were sexually abused or not..but I do know the sex avoidance all too wel.As the previous relationships/unfaithfulness.Which always made me feel weird, I can have sex, I can enjoy it, but only in specific circumstances and almost only when I'm innebriated. And...

and the word you use, ick is exactly right. I have it when my hubby snuggles up to me in bed and I feel his penis against my back, I swear i could jump out of bed at that moment. Or also when I breastfed my children, (my abuse involved similar contact) , it was all I could do to not give up on...

I don't know whether I have any form of ptsd but this is so spot on what's going on with me now it made me smile despite of how graaanh it is :)

I have no idea how to begin this honestly. I'd say the beginning but I'm not even sure what/where that is so please bear with me, it might get messy.I'm also just throwing everything out there, which I've never done before because I hope/think it might be good call out these things without too...