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Thank you. I'm back at work again tonight and it just really weighed on me. I don't really feel like myself

yeah she's at the hospital now and everything's okay I just can't shake this yet

I had a really big trigger at work tonight. A client (I work at a dv and hl shelter.) tried to kill herself in front of me. I handled it pretty well in the moment but now that's it's quiet and everyone's asleep I just want to curl up into a ball and cry.

How is everyone doing? Really? I'm doing pretty well lately! I think my job has helped me heal a lot. Working at a domestic violence shelter and being surrounded by people who are going through the same things I went through is validating and healing. My service dog and my medication help me a...

Thank you both. I think you're right. I'm just always worried about any type of confrontation. I don't want it to sound like I don't love them with all of my heart either because I definitely do. The city I'm moving to I'll be sharing an apartment building with my best friend so it's not like...

I don't really know. I just know that they were there for me at my lowest point. They chose and adopted an adult disabled man and literally paid for everything I needed for three years when I couldn't work. I feel like if I move away it's like spitting in their face and all they've done for me...

I hate to feel this way, but this town holds so much damn pain for me. I love the family I've found so much. I really do. I wouldn't change my mom or dad for the world, but I just can't live in this town anymore. My bio mom still lives here. I've been no-contact with her for several years now...

It's a mixed bag of emotions for sure. I love my current service dog. He's been with me through so much but I also want him to retire and get to relax and be a pet. I'm hopeful for my next service dog. I'm looking at getting a younger dog at a shelter. I really don't want to start with the puppy...

I'm so sorry to hear you're not doing well. I hope you get to feeling better soon.

I've been doing okay lately! I haven't been having so many off days, and it really shows me how much I've progressed. I still want to move out of my apartment (I need to think about retiring my service dog soon and training a new one, but with my current apartment, I'd have to fight tooth and...

Thank you so much! I hope so too!

She came back to my door yesterday. She said that she was diagnosed with schizophrenia and that she was sorry. I explained to her that I also was diagnosed with a version of schizophrenia and that I hallucinate as well. She seemed relieved by that and sorry. She asked if we were okay, and I told...

I have attachment and abandonment issues. I know this about me. I do. So why can I not logic away this feeling? I wasn't really even that into her. She moved on to someone else and she kept pushing my boundaries. So why can't I just let her go? Why is it hurting me so much that she's moving on...

She hasn't come back to my door, and my landlords said they would address the issue, so hopefully it's resolved!

Thanks I really appreciate having someone to talk to about this. I'm just really not good at confrontation lol