I've been doing okay lately! I haven't been having so many off days, and it really shows me how much I've progressed. I still want to move out of my apartment (I need to think about retiring my service dog soon and training a new one, but with my current apartment, I'd have to fight tooth and nail to get a second dog). But I've been less anxious lately. I think the medication combination I have right now works for me really well. I also have been doing better now that I'm at work and I have something to occupy my mind besides just going stir crazy. I really think I've made a lot of progress. I still cycle with my moods and have off days sometimes, but it's been so long since I've had suicidal thoughts (minus bad days) when that used to be all I thought about. How is everyone else doing?
Thank you very much for updating us. I am so happy to hear that you are doing better. We will continue to be here for updates if you need more support at another time.
The process of healing is a journey. It doesn’t follow any pattern. Even when you’re in a good season, you could be hit by a trigger and spiral again. But I have noticed that the recovery time becomes less and less, and I am able to be productive more and more. I’m so very thankful for this forum and for all of you to be there for me. I cannot even say how valuable this form has been and is to me.
Currently, my body is getting taken down by the stress of my son’s suicide attempts. Whenever my body crashes, I completely stop all responsibilities and do self-care. It may take days it may take weeks. But eventually, I’m doing better. My mind has not been so clear in a long time. I’ve been sorting out the mess in my head.
Just my opinion, but it seems to me that a lot of mental illness can be linked to trauma. I’m learning many modalities in order to resolve the trauma: self-care when it is triggered; exploring another new type of therapy or treatment option that I have not explored yet; …
Wishing you well, moving forward one day at a time, one minute at a time when necessary, always being prepared for something to go sideways, because it usually does periodically even when we have things under our belt and are not treated so much. We have to be gentle with ourselves and patience. We didn’t do this to ourselves, and our body needs kindness. Praying that all continues to go well and that you are prepared in case something goes sideways. Wishing you well in exchanging your dogs, and the possible/probable move to a new place.
Celebrate the wins!!! take time to celebrate and appreciate that you’re doing better. That is so important for us to demonstrate love to ourselves and provide our body and mind need: Love.
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