Anne-Ana Mouse
Policy Enforcement
Hi all! I find myself isolating FROM the medical community and doing much better. I binge watch any videos that I find interesting or distracting and spend my time feeling and playing with my pets. I am social so it kills me to feel this way, but I am so much better off than having some crises worker argue with me or some warm line person judging me, or even my respite workers telling me what to do all day. Yes, I need the help, but sometimes, I need the peace more. They say don’t isolate. I usually don’t, but I’m really sensitive to the constant criticism most people have to spew, the counselors being the worst. I call it a detox from the medical and support people. I promised the Vet’s crisis line I’d call for support. When I did though, it’s back to not listening, cutting me off, bombarding me with questions that may or may not have anything to do with anything. Forget filing a complain, they are too sensitive to even hear me out without getting defensive. I started yelling and cursing at anyone who demeans me. I usually warn them first saying, please don’t interrupt me or please don’t say derogatory things about me, but it never works. They go into attack/defense/it’s not me it’s you mode. Then I bring out the swear words. Lately no one can help me, everyone who is supposed to support me triggers me. I think they are jacks with a capital A. If I wasn’t in crises they wouldn’t bother me, I wouldn’t be calling. Now, I sit in silence more, embrace my thoughts and feelings, and practice silencing my mind. I feel strange about it all.
