Can you be doing better if you still have super dark days?

[SeekingAfrica]

I've had a lot of breakthroughs since December, even more so November. But I'm still on this ice in many areas of life, what was supposed to be a healing month is increasingly stressing me out (time at family) and I am having a DAY. I twisted my ankle falling on ice, my stomach hurts (women issues), and my parents still won't stop with negative comments. I wanted 1 full day of peace and rest for my stomach and my ankle so I have the capability to make a work plan for the time coming up. Instead it's even louder than usually. And it's so happens to be the day most people are busy and I can't get through to my (new) partner, unlike usually and closest friends are within work time. I'm losing it.
It's hard being calm, let alone getting rest.

I've improved so much and every fall hurts. And today feels like a continuous fall where you keep getting bruised over and over.
How can I get to rational enough to even think of the things I should be thinking about?

Which naturally leads me to feeling really dark like I can't think straight...

 

[arfie]

I've improved so much and every fall hurts. And today feels like a continuous fall where you keep getting bruised over and over.
How can I get to rational enough to even think of the things I should be thinking about?

that remains a million dollar question in every aspect of my life. why do clients have to be so pissy? why can't my spouse be on my side for once? whose twisted idea was it to send me 3 young orphans at the age of 65? is that 65 years old or 65 years young? why do those ingrateful orphans have to be so childish? why does that pesky border crisis keep wandering up my driveway?

what was it i was supposed to get rational enough to even think about?

today i'm singing along with the temptations. we see what song tomorrow inspires.

 

[SeekingAfrica]

today i'm singing along with the temptations. we see what song tomorrow inspires.

Thank you. Life seems to be a conundrum at times but you made me laugh about it, that helps. So do painkillers when your ankle needs to heal and new days. At least a little bit.

You're a champion! Hope your day is going better today.

 

[arfie]

laugh about it, that helps. So do painkillers when your ankle needs to heal

yup, laughter is great medicine, but today is confusing enough that i'll take one of those painkillers, if you have a spare.
the chamomile tea isn't quite calming enough today.

 

[SeekingAfrica]

yup, laughter is great medicine, but today is confusing enough that i'll take one of those painkillers, if you have a spare.
the chamomile tea isn't quite calming enough today.

Totally, sending though our teleportation device through continents ;).
There are such days. In fact, journaling, organizing and yoga are more calming to me most days than camomile tea to be honest. To unburden myself and to get (some) order in the chaos happening.

But you handling 3 kids at any age? That's a THING. You should be extremely proud (and likely exhausted), trust me, not everyone can so I totally get you.
You need a lot of patience and brainpower for this.

 

[arfie]

Totally, sending though our teleportation device through continents ;).

patiently awaiting delivery, but our heroic teleporters are looking slower than snail mail. . . sigh. . . "virtual" still means "almost."

You should be extremely proud (and likely exhausted), trust me, not everyone can so I totally get you.

yeah, the young-at-heart crowd keeps telling me what a lucky young lady i am. . . this job feels tougher now that i am, "years young." in my first parenting career, nobody ever called me, "young lady," nor "years young." i'm reaching the floor easier than when i was years old, but getting up is tougher than ever. years young bones break more easily than years old bones.

i translate the compliments as, "good luck, sucker. excuse me while i maintain proper social distances."