Recent content by WAgirl

Thanks for the encouragement, it really helps hearing others perspectives. I trust my T, I'm sure I'll go back. I need this to work, but right now my alarm bells are going non stop. Sleep is not my friend tonight.

So I had my 4th emdr session today and I basically got walloped with something related to a memory I already had, that I thought I knew. This was something...I had no idea until I'm watching the lights back and forth, feeling the buzzing and like a slap to the head I'm in this memory I didn't...

Thanks @berlinda. I've seen my new therapist a few times now, she feels like a good fit. I was honest to a point about my suicidal thoughts, it's early in getting to know her and I worry about getting sent to the hospital so I downplayed it. I did agree though after some discussion to see...

A problem for me so a definite possibility.

I don't and honestly I'm terrified of the idea of the hospital.

I'm just trying to hold on right now. It's a struggle.

I've seen her twice. She's been working with me on breathing. I wish I knew what I was doing, Im sorry.

All I can think of is how I'm going to end it. All day, the same thing. I'm trying to so hard to work with my new therapist but I just don't know if I can do it anymore. I've been doing this for almost a year and I just don't know if I have any gas left in the tank. I'm trying the...

So, I just started with a new therapist. My first one ever doesn't do emdr and she said she thought that might be a better route to go as after 3 mo she was worried about going too deep with me. I find all of this confusing and I'm stressed about starting over but the I feel ok so far with my...

@TommySunlight I'm sorry you're feeling like this too. No, I'm lucky that my threat is long gone but my brain doesn't know it I guess. Just this much acknowledgement brings the tears on. Its a mess.

I'm in therapy but still trying to find my way, I don't have anyone else to talk to about this stuff. I feel like I'm just going nuts most of the time. Taking off wouldn't change much but the scenery, but I'm alone now even in a room full of people I know or family. Being alone around people...

Slept horribly, waking up multiple times panicky or feeling awful. Been flooded all day with memories/feelings and all I want to do is get in my car and drive until the tank is dry. I don't care where I just want to chuck everything and go. If I end up under a rock somewhere, so be it.

I truly appreciate the help from everyone. It's some comfort to know others have had the same thoughts/stumbling blocks I'm having. Therapy is new to me so I don't really have have anything to compare it to. And yes, I've been obsessing hard on some of her questions, I get suspicious she...

Thank you for the responses. Being new to therapy and having all this come up...I'm just a mess and there seems to be no end. I appreciate the insights.

Trauma is supposed to be one of her areas. She has me doing Cognitive Processing Therapy which is aimed at PTSD. I could change although the thought of starting over with a new person is gives me incredible anxiety.