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I would like to see more written about high-functioning PTSD. I was diagnosed almost nine years ago. The first few years were a nightmare but I've spent a long time in therapy, on meds, working with it, and I'm at the point now where I essentially function normally, not just in public. Then I...

Thank you. I thought anniversaries were supposed to get better each year? That's usually what it's been. I stopped seeing a therapist for awhile because I couldn't find one I liked and have started again over the summer. Maybe I am only reopening the wound. I have recovered in many ways so I...

I will try and make this post as readable as possible but I am in a state right now. Late tonight/tomorrow morning starts the seventh anniversary for me. I was starting to feel anxious last night and my fiancee asked if it was getting better or worse. She was trying to help but I feel like I've...

Thank you all for welcoming me back. I'm glad I have somewhere to go. I used to have two steps-forward one step-back all the time, but it seemed I'd been stable for so long (at least with the PTSD - I still have a lot of anxiety attacks) that any interruption terrifies me that I might fall back...

I haven't been here in a long while. I was doing really well. I guess if I'm trying to be fair to myself I'm doing pretty well in general compared to the places I've been and the stories I've heard from others. I go to work and function, I'm on new meds, which are finally giving me back the full...

Jesse, I can definitely relate to that feeling of staring at a task, unable to get anything done. For written work, I will break it down as much as possible. Like D123 said, sometimes just doing a paragraph at a time is helpful. For the really bad times, I've sat down with a favorite snack...

I found the number for the therapist and the psychiatrist to set up appointments and finally worked up the courage to call them again. They've both moved locations and aren't there anymore. I don't know where to go now. It took me weeks to stop shaking in terror every time I went into their...

A list for strategies sounds like a good idea. Then I can refer back to it when I can't think clearly of what to do. I'll call the therapist in the morning and see when I can get in. I am scared but hopefully she will keep her promise and not send me away.

I understand, Therisa. For me, the passive voice is there as an option. It comes up every now and then, especially when things have the potential to go wrong. There's a little voice that reminds me that if things get bad enough, I could always off myself. The more active ones are the ones that...

I am sort of in therapy. I have been several times but the schedule usually gets messed up so there are gaps in between. It's been at least a month though. I am scared to go back like this because then they will know I am crazy. I'm scared I will break down in the office. I watch TV but...

I do not have a list. I really don't have much of anything. Some acquaintances at work but no friends. I can no longer pursue my past interests because of where I am. I loved playing the piano and Irish stepdancing. I can do neither now because I have no access to a piano (I have tried a...

Hello, I have been away from the forum for awhile. When things are going well, I can convince myself that I am better. Most of the time I have been doing fairly well, which used to make me feel guilty for coming here. For the last few weeks, I have been battling what I knew would be a very...

I will try and explain and maybe someone can tell me once and for all if I am in fact a fraud. Physical injury was not threatened, but my integrity and the integrity of my mind was threatened. It was unlikely that I would be physically attacked, but I lost my freedom and the illusion of control...

Thank you for answering my question, I Can Do This. I never thought about it as an injury that can flare up before. I've heard of PTSD being described as more of a physical ailment instead of a mental one, but because I suffered from mental illness before and during PTSD, the two are...

Everyone I have told has had a reaction of surprise and disbelief, because my experiences should not have caused PTSD. The first and often only thing they ever say is Why? This includes therapists, except for the one who diagnosed me. I have never heard of anyone else in my situation. Even...