Recent content by Zoe1972

Thanks Everyone.. Holly- I do have a new T. although it has been very hard trusting the new T. I cried on the way to the appointments for the first month and half. I am very greatful that my ex T asked if I wanted to be added to her website that she used to send out updates regarding her...

My beloved ex T had to stop practicing in March due to her breast cancer had spread to the brain. I recieved an email that she passed away today. I am so sad! I will never forget her. She made a huge impact on life.

So is a bad sign that I don't want to talk about the details of the sexual abuse? :/

@shimmerz- if I faint - I am out cold and don't know my surroundings. I tend to scare the people around me including doctors. If am dizzy and feel "off" I am aware of my surroundings. I am sorry you have been treated that way. They should be understanding and show concern and compassion for you!

I will cry in private, but rarely in front of people, it doesn't feel safe. I have only cried once in therapy, it was when my therapist told me she had to retire due to her illness(cancer).

I have this! I starting fainting at the age of 8. I can control it for the most part but there are times I can't. Had a tilt table test that confirmed it when I was 30. I see a cardiologist.

FindingMyself88 - Good Luck tomorrow, I will send you postive thoughts that it goes well. I understand why you are feeling the way you are. I am someone that can feel guilt in any situation.

FindingMyself88- I have always wanted to remember my childhood, so I would remember my Dad. Now I am not so sure I want to know. Ugh!! Good Luck to you too. I am glad we both had good 1st session.

It was an emotional drive to the session. This appt made it real that I was not going to see my old T again, (who is battling cancer and had to closed her practice.) Over all it went well. I can tell the difference right a way between a CBT and Trauma therapist. We went over history. I was...

Thank you guys for your responses. It means a lot!

FindingMyself88- I would not have made the change, however my T had to close her practice.(she is battling cancer) Good Luck too you!

So I made an appointment with a new T. I see her Thursday. She seemed very understanding and open on the phone. She is a trauma Therapist. I am super nervous and have anxiety about the emdr. She did explain that we need to get to know each other before we would try emdr. My T was a CBT...

@arfie - thanks for your post. Yes- we worked on coping skills. Sometimes I forget to use them. I think I have let my emotions take over. I remembered this morning how hard it was find my last T. I am feeling better today. I am not going put pressure on myself this week to find someone new.

So I played phone tag with someone my T referred me too today.The therapists gave me 4 other people I could try. It was very strange. She started off with she would not be able to make the first appointment with me until 4/14 as she books up quickly. Then went on to say something like it's very...

@arfie Thanks for your post. I think I need sometime to process this.