First Appt With Trauma Therapist.

[Zoe1972]

It was an emotional drive to the session. This appt made it real that I was not going to see my old T again, (who is battling cancer and had to closed her practice.)

Over all it went well. I can tell the difference right a way between a CBT and Trauma therapist. We went over history.

I was taken back with a couple of things, she wants to explore early childhood. My main trauma is between 10 years-18years old. However I have no memory before the age 9. I had always believed it was because my Dad died when I was 9. She said I can not heal without having all the pieces.

Our plan is to get to know each other and work on imagery of safe place in my mind. She also wants to teach me more grounding, self soothing. I currently use self talk.

I will see her weekly. Still freaked out about the emdr. She did explain it more. We won't do that until I trust her and she see how much I dissociate. I was eye opening.

 

[Bees Are Awesome]

Sounds like a very positive start with your new T. I hope that is a continued good experience for you going forward. Working with a good T makes a lot of difference. All the best to you!

 

[FindingMyself88]

sounds like you had an overall good meeting with your new T too. Mine set up basically the same plans, except she wants to use mindfulness as a soothing technique. Mine told me it would be long term and we wouldn't start EMDR until I felt comfortable with her and had shared some of my traumas already, so that might help you.

As far as history goes, I think you need to trust her. There may be a reason why you don't remember your childhood. Mine is broken into pieces and just recently are some falling into place.

Sounds like a good first session, good luck to you and healing!

 

[Zoe1972]

FindingMyself88-

I have always wanted to remember my childhood, so I would remember my Dad. Now I am not so sure I want to know. Ugh!!

Good Luck to you too. I am glad we both had good 1st session.

 

[FindingMyself88]

Your situation may not be the same as mine. There are several reasons for "amnesia" when it comes to trauma. just go as slowly as you need and build the trust with your new T!