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Yes it's kind of like being on edge because of the irrational fear of catastrophe. It reminds me of hypervigilance.

I always feel like I'm about to fall off the edge of something high up. It bothers me every single day of my life, this constant feeling. I brought it up to my therapist, but she said it could be my chair...but I have this feeling no matter what chair I sit it. I don't have it when I'm in the...

At least they're behaving somewhere.

I don't like Trump's ICE shenanigans. They are too trigger happy. They need to take some lessons from local police about de-escalation and safety tactics so everyone comes out alive.

How do you become more confident, less afraid. Like normal people. I'm always looked at as easy prey and I hate it. Others are passed up, but I seem to attract the ill-intentioned like a magnet. Why can't I also give off "not-an-easy-target" vibes?

Thank you! I am currently in school full-time so I stay pretty busy with full-time work and full-time school. It's moreso because staying home tends to make my illness worse. Having a job to go to helps a lot. I'm not sure why, it just does.

Yes, I've been working with her for years. She's told me that it is a normal decision not to become a first responder and that people who do become first responders are the exception to the rule because not everyone is capable or wants to put their life at risk or see traumatizing events almost...

I was raped at the age of six by my stepfather. My mother protected him and remained married to him. She hid him from the police and said her initial complaint was a lie. She hid him until they found out the charges were dropped. Meanwhile, my brother and I had to go through the foster care...

My therapist and I agreed to not make any rash decisions right now. And since I am adjusting to this new medicine, I can see how our relationship is without the rage. If it's still not fulfilling, I can say I tried with and without medication.

This is very helpful. I do the same things like not answer my phone and wonder if the other person feels abandoned but when I speak to them again, they're not bothered at all. And when I don't answer the phone or respond to a text is always because I'm simply busy, not because I'm abandoning anyone.

After the psychiatrist meeting, I did notice impulses I have to request validation from my bf. I get these impulses because I'm uncomfortable in peaceful situations. It's like feeling nothing. Like when the weather is not too hot or too cold and there is no wind so you can't feel the air at all...

just got done with this psychiatrist. I may pick fights because I don't feel anything or no connection with my bf and tension is better than feeling nothing at all. I may choose emotionally-unavailable people to be with because that is familiar to me. Tension is familiar to me. I choose...

He knows we are in a romantic relationship. We live together but we are not intimate like we were in the beginning. He used to not be able to leave me alone now it's like pulling teeth. He has health problems which have floored his libido so I kinda feel bad for pressuring him but at the same...

Asking my bf for help would be ridiculous. He would just say he has a lot on his own plate to deal with. Besides, it's not like he can go to work for me or do my school work for me. I do wish I could talk to him more, but I realized I'm on a timer. If I take too long to get what I need to say...

I don't think it's one person. I get angry at people at work and even my dog who is as old as Noah's Ark, can't hear or see, and yet I still expect her to come to me when I call her name. I get so ugly when I'm angry, I start to sound like my mother. This scares me. I make a point to be nice...

I'm going back on medication. I'm angry all the time, taking it out on the ones I love. The cup thing is very true. And it is very true that I have PTSD. I always feel like I'm about to fall off a skyscraper. Someone screamed in the office today and it made me almost have a panic attack. Faking...

Anyone who tells you not to get help for yourself is subject to immediate no contact. That means they don't want what's best for you, all they want is to control you. My abuser also persuaded me not to go to therapy or take medicine because it would put a stigma on me. I went no contact with...

I don't believe he's like that so I need to do better. I want to stop stalking him on social media. I don't want to fight anymore and neither does he. Last night, we cuddled with his dog and just laid there without saying anything. It was like we didn't have to. We already knew how each other...

Found he was following a dating page on tiktok. Had a huge fight and broke up but we still live together. He unfollowed the dating app and said he must have accidentally fat-fingered it. He doesn't know how to access his follow list. He SUCKS at anything digital...so I wouldn't put it past him...

When men tell me that I should "just trust them" it's honestly laughable. For what? What did you do to earn my trust? I don't just willy nilly hand out my trust like candy you piece of.. It is "I'll distrust you until you give me a reason to trust you." The saying, "trust until they give you a...

I hope it goes well, too. My brother is the only one I speak to other than distant family that had nothing to do with what happened. When I see pictures of his daughter growing up without me, I cry and can't believe how beautiful she is, especially being from my brother. To us, conversations of...

I want to be happily married but I guess my stepdad and my mommy dearest f*cked that up for me. Maybe I should get back on medication. The only reason I stopped was because it made me gain weight. On the other hand, when I developed my crush, I was on medication so the lack of validation from...

Preface: when I was growing up, my stepdad f*cked me every chance he got. It didn't matter when I was 6, 10,13 or 25. He kept it a secret from my mother for as long as he could. He was a very good liar. Until she eventually found out. She hated me and protected him. She blamed me for the demise...

One of the things that pisses me off so quickly are my bosses' knee-jerk reaction to everything that goes wrong in my neck of the woods is somehow my fault. I've even sat there in silence and listened to them blame me and then realize I didn't mess up in the span of 30 seconds. When someone...

A "rage cage" is something unattainable for me. I'm not a violent person. My anger makes me yell, not throw hands. My focus will instead be on the "pause". After re-reading these responses, I think that should be my goal. Tonight, I'm trying not to beat myself up over my recent failures. Others...