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So I had a huge back-step a couple of weeks ago. I stumbled across the fact that my abuser had unblocked me on facebook all of a sudden which sent me in to a complete panic.A colleague had tagged me in a public work post so he could see exactly where I work which worries me, plus all the...

Ok so I haven't posted in ages but my entire experience with my PTSD has changed and now I'm stuck. I used to be mainly hypervigilent, anxious etc, I got a lot of flashbacks and intrusive thoughts. I was handling it all ok but my nights barrier was sex. When I knew my boyfriend was in the mood...

Hi guys, I'm determined to leave my current job plainly and simply because my boss is terrible. He's never been a manager before, he's opened a brand new business and he is pretentious, aggressive and can be a bully. I'm looking to leave the fitness industry and just personal train part time...

I have stayed quiet about what happened to me, only my boyfriend, my best friend, my therapist and my Doctor know the truth which is unfortunately the case for many people who have been attacked. I have no intentions of 'outing' him, I am terrified of him and he made it clear that if I said...

This is the first post I've talked about my assault, I feel like I need to. I have been seemingly doing really well lately on the outside but I know that doesn't bode well for whatever's going on in my subconscious, for one thing my nightmares have been coming back. I have my trauma written...

I've suffered with PTSD for 3 years, diagnosed 2 years ago, made much worse following a second assault 1 year ago. I have experienced nightmares on different levels ever since my first trauma but since last year they are so much worse. I think the reason for this is that during my first...

I had my follow up session with my therapist a few weeks ago. She thinks I've made good progress and don't give myself credit for the things I've achieved, but says from here on, if I'm happy to do so, I can "be my own therapist" and carry on my road to recovery without therapy. If I want to go...

I know that there's absolutely nothing that can be done in terms of an attacker getting on with their life most of the time. But what KILLS me is how many people see mine as a top citizen. I have told next to no one about what he did to me, only 2 friends, my therapist, my mental health nurse...

It's almost a year since my attacker stopped tourmenting me and although we live in the same town I've thankfully not seen him once, it's the one thing I've been dreading more than anything, mainly because I'm terrified he will see me and then decide he's not done with me. One of my coworkers...

F*ck. So I go through extremely annoying phases with my PTSD. I'll be consumed by it for weeks, seeing my attackers face all the time, anxiety through the roof, being unable to get the images of my attack from going over and over in my head. Then I'll have another few weeks where *poof* I...

I've been heavily steered towards medication by my doctor for my PTSD but always refused, I feel like medication was for people who can't control their anxiety and even though it does get bad I wanted to be able to control it without drugs. I feel sh*t to say I think I'm gonna have to do it...

So following my second assault almost a year ago, I am still utterly, consumingly haunted. An ongoing battle since it happened has been people grabbing my wrists. I know you're probably thinking "how often do people grab someone's wrists in day to day life" and I would've thought the same but...

My boyfriend knew I was assaulted, but I didn't tell him what exactly happened, I wrote a post a while ago about being unsure about telling him and decide not to. My T told me to write an account on what happened, so I did and ended up destroying it. The other day I was feeling very emotionally...

Let's start off by saying, I'm still struggling like mad, sometimes it still feels worse than ever. I see his face when I close my eyes, I shake in public, I feel close to tears all . the . time ! But... I'm mad, which is giving me this motivation. I'm mad at the guy that's destroyed me, how...

I had my 11th CBT session this morning, I have 1 left and I'm not sure I'm ready to deal with this on my own but I'm trying to be optimistic instead of "oh god what am I going to do" My Therapist said she's going to prepare me for relapses etc. Has anyone found anything helpful after therapy...

I have the biggest sympathy for anyone suffering with any mental illness but this girl at work has just enraged me. She is lazy, calls in sick, constantly swaps shifts so she can go out and get drunk and only gets off her phone to flirt with the boys who come in to workout. She's been getting...

Since my attacker stopped harassing me back in October/November time I haven't seen or heard a thing. I had to use some tactics to get him to leave me alone, he didn't just decide to give me peace which is probably the reason for the constant fear that he's going to come back for me. Anyway...

ok so in therapy sessions we've established that disassociating myself from my feelings is a real problem with me. Its almost a survival instinct at this point, I don't let my feelings show to anyone else. When I'm alone they can cripple me but if I have work I'll have a little cry, clean up my...

My anxiety is terrible but I've been adamant to refuse medication, I hate the idea of shutting off my emotions, even the bad ones. It's a daily battle, however I have a very supportive boyfriend. I write my apple password in his phone and make sure he knows it's there incase I'm ever kidnapped...

I've always been really proud of myself as a person, I haven't done lots of wonderful things, I don't think I'm some sort of Saint but I've always been clear, logical and level headed with a kind heart. Since my second trauma in August ive lost myself almost completely. I went back to self...

The last assault I endured was about 7 months ago but the trauma carried on for a month of him threatening me, harassing me and putting fear into me. I know now that he knew he'd done wrong and put this fear into me because he was scared Id report him but that doesn't stop me being petrified at...

I've been sexually assaulted twice, once 3 years ago on a night out by a friend who wanted more and decided to spike my drink and once by an obsessive guy I was seeing at the time. It makes me ashamed that this has happened to me twice, like somehow I bring it on myself. I was diagnosed with...