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I agree with @whiteraven and @notsurewheretoturn I left the community where the majority of my trauma occurred and I rarely go back, only then to visit family or for funerals. It is tough and I am fortunate that my dad doesn't actually live in town so when I do visit I have the solitude of...

So today has been a rough one. Followed up with the surgeon this morning and they are concerned and have decided to push my return to work out another week so I will be off three weeks instead of two as they don't want me to be sitting in a hard desk chair for 8 hours straight so I am on pseudo...

@Muttly thank you, I appreciate the offer of a ride and the support. I appreciate the support from everyone here. I am home, but I don't have any answers and I am leaning more towards all of this being body memories which honestly makes it worse at least for me. Today, has been an all...

I am sitting in a room at the ER. I called my dr this morning and the on call dr called back. He asked a bunch of questions and though he doesn’t think it is anything much he wanted to be sure and told me to go to the ER because either way I needed something stronger than Tylenol and Motrin...

Thanks @Friday I don’t want it to be either but it is something and yeah I gave in and took the med. tried heat, ice, the non-opioid pain meds for post op and nothing was helpful not even muscle relaxers. Should have known when it woke me up but was trying hard to do the mind over matter thing.

I am laying here awake in the middle of the night because I am having these horrible stabbing pains and cramping in the vaginal and what would be uterine areas. Bad enough that they woke me up an hour and a half ago and my pain meds haven’t relieved the pain. Unfortunately, right before I went...

Sorry it has taken so long to get back here was not the ideal day I had hoped it would be. Surgery took longer than expected and as to be expected in American hospitals I still don’t know why and I still have no idea what all was done. The surgeon and I had a game plan but there were a lot...

So in a few hours I am having repair surgery for a failed surgery from roughly 15 years ago that was necessary because I was so dysregulated and body dysmorphic as a result of my SA that I convinced my doctors to remove what I considered to be the cause of all my problems the very part of me...

So, I have found this place located near me that is similar to the "rage room" that was one of the therapy sessions at the River Oaks when I was inpatient. It is a safe environment (PPE required) supervised by individuals trained in first aid, with specific types of items that you are allowed...

@Muttly you are not attention seeking. You are as entitled to how you feel as anyone else here, never forget that I know it is hard and I wish I had some great wisdom to help you but just know we don't think you are attention seeking and you have every right to have a meltdown and to think...

Any chance I can go back in time and forget about ptsd again? I won't pretend life was better but ignorance was a hell of a lot easier sometimes.

one thing that you can do is check out the job accommodation network askjan.org, it can be very helpful for both employees and employers in determining what are reasonable accommodations based upon different disabilities. It will also allow you to look at the accommodation and work with your...

So the intermittent fasting attempt has officially ended as of today. I really tried and the issue was not the limited time for eating. That didn't cause me any issues. I actually adjusted the times from her initial 11-7 to 12-8 as the worked better for me with my work schedule to not start...

This is not for me to say. I can only talk about my situation. I fudged the information to my doctor about how heavy my periods were and the intensity of the cramping. I stayed on birth control even after my tubes were tied because of my absolute terror of becoming pregnant again. During one...

@Friday I should clarify, this is not a sole practitioner practice. In fact my Pdoc is not even the top person and they have a full administrative staff, psych nurses, NP's, therapists and the full range of counselors. I didn't expect to speak with my Pdoc directly when I called nor did I...

So, I reached a point last weekend having spent two days in bed and reaching the end of nearly a month of serious on-going SI that I should probably speak to my Pdoc about modifying my medications. Not sure how but something has to change for the better. I started calling on Monday and got a...

Put this way, yeah it makes a lot of sense. Haven't really thought about it this way before and will definitely need to think about this. I get this as well. Unfortunately, I struggle with accepting/admitting my mental illness even with myself many times, goes back to the idea of suck it up...

I reach out to my T and see if I can get an emergency session.

@LittleBigFoot The original suggestion was to eat every 3-4 hours and have 5-6 meals a day, the challenge with this is that I don't recognize hunger cues until I am at a point of getting a headache or severe nausea. Also most days especially now that I am working from home I work through what...

@LittleBigFoot the dietitian is not aware of my eating disorder neither is my PCP. Long story I was diagnosed while hospitalized in 2018 but pretty much a stickler for not allowing my care providers to communicate because I have been burnt in the past by a care providers personal "medical"...

@that_1_girl and @Movingforward10 I can completely relate to this type of self harm and disassociating my body/genitals from who I am. For years I have blamed the parts of my female anatomy for making me an attractive victim to my abusers starting with my brother. I took multiple steps to...

My PCP referred me to a dietitian and we met today and she wants me to try intermittent fasting. For me eating is an issue, Food was heavily controlled when I was growing up as my brother/abuser had issues with control and was a type 1 diabetic from the age of 8. Since he would not control his...

well I don't have any tangerine peels and can't get any due to allergies but I did know where my lavender essential oil was and it was with the things I have on hand. I immediately jumped up, grabbed cotton balls and started putting then in every cabinet and even rubbing the doors a bit to get...

Fellow cat owners I need your help. I have moved into a new place and my cat is completely enamored with hiding inside my cabinets. She is driving me crazy either nose bumping the doors trying to get into them, which she pretty much eventually always does as I have found her in every floor...

For me SI is like one of my constant companions, it is always there, I always have multiple different plans/methods at my disposal and is probably the most consistent thing in my life. At it's strongest, like right now it is when I get to a point of utter exhaustion. I am tired, tired of...