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Also not to mention the near constant flashbacks and reminders from it. Fears of burning forever and that I have demons all around me. And that I'm essentially bad. Bad blood.

There was lots of scripture used to justify and even promote abuse. They put me I closets. Otherthings then at home too.....

I'm not sure. I usually self-harm, I know that's not it helpful. I have "swings" too. If you would like to talk I'm here.

Ah I see. I've been like this since before I can remember. I think it strted probably at 3 or so but around kindergarten/1st grade it became worse and it's been there ever since. Can I share a bit with you? Link you to my threads I've written about this on these forums? You're not alone.

Are you still doing this study? If so how do I contact you?

You're not alone. I really suggest looking that term up.

Look up the term on google "Maladaptive Daydreaming" Can relate 100% to what you've written.

Been on same trajectory. Finally seeing some light. Things have been bad on this end too. Sitting with you. Can relate so much.

I was. Christian Fundamentalist. Very damaging stuff. You're not alone. There was so many good things but also so much trauma, brainwashing, and abuse. I was born into and raised in it. Isolated from "outsiders" and yeah lots of things. Ugh.. shudders.

Also, what I did was googled trauma informed therapists in ___ (my state) and finally after months found one. I too have severe anxiety and panic and dissociative issues.

It took me a long while too to find a good trauma T. I have to drive 1.5 hours, one way to see her. She does all sorts of therapy modalities. We finally got stablized and I ended up losing my job due to my C-PTSD (due to the same things you mentioned). But it's been a blessing after all though...

Sorry you feel that way. When I see that photo I also got the same reaction. It's gross! I had an emotionally incestuous relationship with my father and it brought back lots of feels of, ugh....

I don't know if they can be called body memories for me as I have no memory(s) at all of anything that would cause the said sensations I so often get. But I'm beginning to think I have no other lable to call them though. But still regardless of what I call them, I do get sensations, especially...

Have EXTENSIVE history with MDD - especially the negative kind. That's what most of my daydreams are about.

Feel free to message me. Would be happy to talk there.

You're welcome

Oh I'm sorry. I guess an admin already did reply. Duh. Silly me.

It's okay to use we/us pronouns, I think? I have used them myself when referring to me/us. The only thing, from my understanding, is that no one under 13 can post on these forums. So that would include little ones inside too I think. I don't usually give too many specifics because I too, in...

I have found things that help with anxiety. I'll message you with some information.

Yes. Reasonable. :)

Hello and welcome! It's a good and supportive place to be. Sorry to hear what brings you here. Can relate to your story.

I am sorry that happened to you. I can not relate to the part of waking up bloody down there. But I can relate to waking up and being covered in bruises that I am unaware of getting. Wondering if they are self-inflicted for me.. I also have parts, don't know if they are full personalities, I...

Hello and welcome! It's a great place to be. All the support to you b

@eowynofrohan Hello and welcome! You're brave and strong for reaching out. All the support to you. Sorry to hear what happened to you.

I am sorry you can relate. Thanks for replying Can I ask what the pain was like as far as descriptors go?