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  1. littleoc

    Going to lose everything, am panicked and want to end it but don't want to abandon best friend or family

    I have five cats, two reptiles, one bird They are family to me. Doubt I'll be able to have that many or re-home all of them in a way I can visit often It's so hard. I'm so scared. Have a job interview at local fast food place today. I only make 1000/mo on disability, so planning to come off...
  2. littleoc

    Going to lose everything, am panicked and want to end it but don't want to abandon best friend or family

    I don't want to live without my cats. I hope something works out. But probably I will be giving them all away soon, and I'm scared
  3. littleoc

    Going to lose everything, am panicked and want to end it but don't want to abandon best friend or family

    Sorry if wrong category. The house I'm living in will need to be sold. I've been cleaning out my dad's hoard for over 20 years. It's still not clean. I'm going to lose all my animals, the only reason I'm alive. Grandpa owns the house. Will probably need to sell it to go live in a nursing...
  4. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I saved a stray kitten only for the shelter to tell me they will probably just re-release also. Found that genuinely devastating, probably what's got my mood fried 🍤 besides being extremely tired. Agreed to the date pretty last minute, because he seemed like a great guy. And he was, he just...
  5. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Went on a date with a guy. Vibe was off, that's fine and normal. Just I apparently was more hopeful that something would work out than I thought. And coming home to a house that just will not feel like home. Hopefully just need sleep. Feeling lonely though. Still doing well overall. Best...
  6. littleoc

    just posting I guess

    Great news: It starts with bad news. Bare with me. I have lost my mom, then my old lady Kiki, then my service dog Nestle. The animals all of old age, and then last week, Kiki's oldest brother Xavie began to pass away of old age. It was a little more sudden and therefore I unfortunately needed...
  7. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    i am still doing great 👍
  8. littleoc

    Anxiety and anger at my Mum's vocal sounds

    So, so sorry :( 🫂 glad you managed to keep a roof over your head in the meantime
  9. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Can't afford my bills this month. Sigh. Will probably lose Internet coverage so don't mind the long absence
  10. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Ok, talked to dr psychiatrist about it. He was fascinated, but we're doing a new game plan to restart meds one at a time to see if they still help or if they don't, and we'll go from there
  11. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I was awake for two days straight and my psychiatrist office effed up my meds again -- up because the sibling of Kiki (who just passed from cancer) got sick, and my one life ambition is to make all my cats safe and comfortable as often as possible But I also haven't had any of my medications...
  12. littleoc

    house

    Is there a seahorse emoji
  13. littleoc

    house

    Tips for cleaning out dysfunctionally cluttered house
  14. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I hope Canada f*cking invades this dumbass country
  15. littleoc

    Section 8 probably fallen through

    My mom's house is very uncomfortable to be in and I don't want to live with my brother. Was really hoping section 8 would come through so I could at least clean it out easier. I just want something to work
  16. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Feels like saying "trying not to react to my life and instead be like everyone else"
  17. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    It's hard to be chill when you live somewhere where you're constantly uncomfortable
  18. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I miss Nestle and my mom
  19. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    I love the cats. And my bird. And my snake and my lizard.
  20. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Just been chilling in the Kroger parking lot for an hour lol -- got me a frozen pizza I can heat up in the oven while I do cat litter. I've gained two more cats, so I try to do litter daily, but I took a short break during the new year celebrations. Trying to not spiral. Just trying to be...
  21. littleoc

    Section 8 probably fallen through

    Thank you :( I'm calmer about it now. A little relieved I'll be able to stay with all my cats and not have to deal with logistics for a while. It's hard but it's fine
  22. littleoc

    Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

    Maybe. They have today. The voucher expires on Sunday for some reason, though. Maybe if the landlord turns in their portion this weekend, it will be enough? I'm so stressed about things I can't get out of bed because I have to face what my life is now. I hate my life and I hate being...
  23. littleoc

    Anxiety and anger at my Mum's vocal sounds

    I was having these issues while living with my mother. I'm not sure I'll be much help to you, though, because I eventually tried putting up boundaries and now I regret it deeply. My mother died suddenly and it's been hell having to deal with the fact that it turns out she wasn't trying to hurt...
  24. littleoc

    Section 8 probably fallen through

    It's in okay shape, I guess. Antique carpets need replacing. Has a tiny kitchen. I'm not sure what I want to do yet, though. There's benefits to staying and to leaving. I don't want to stay here because it doesn't feel like mine. It's still full of stuff. There's a possibility I may inherit...
  25. littleoc

    Section 8 probably fallen through

    I have gone through multiple plans in the last decade+ to try to get housing away from my mom's house. In the process, my mom died, my service dog died and I can't get another, every plan has failed in ways that are outside my control despite working so hard to make them work, and I've lost hope...
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