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I dont care to discuss family affair and I do acknowledge that its not gonna be as simple as I wish it was to just say we are in no contact with no further questions asked or other inquires.
I belive you @Edith. Im in no contact what so ever not even with a lawyer. Thankfully Im over and done...
In society there is organisations and groups for seemingly everything and every issue. For ex drug addicts. For those that suffers from narsisitic abuse wether from family or partner. There is organisations and groups from those that suffered from incest and other sexual abuse. From alcohol...
After processing a bit I get why this get to me. Boss said in debriefing in plenum that we did a good job at this incident in school. Well of the 5 people attending we were only two people that took care of the situation and especially it was me. I would have appreciated the boss look me...
Meeting ended with a small sidekick to Bloomy from boss ie negative criticsm. But Bloomy is working on ignoring general bullshit from others even if titel is boss.
Life goes on.
Boss called in to meeting about this today. She dont seem very interested in how I am other then the polite message this morning to ask if Im ok, but guess thats normal.
Think I was very tired yesterday when I wrote the post and couldnt write proper nor clear.
@NoWhereKnowWhere you answered what I was wondering about. Yes I was wondering if it was right to call emergency. And yes I also wonder if my reaction to it was normal. Or emotional response. Felt like I...
I work in kids scholl. Kids can get pretty rough towards eachother when they play.
We try to talk with them about it - schools have some programs to teach them social - be - nice to eachother skills, but still...
Today it went all wrong as the kids where out to play. A kid strangled another...
Apropo yoga Ive been doing it regulary for some time now atleast 2 - 3 times a week. For the first time in my life I can almost go down the split :ninja::rolleyes: Guess Ill be a 50 years old lady doing split if I continue lol:brb::chicken::whistling::wideeyed::p:laugh::laugh::laugh::laugh::laugh:
@shatter eyes its true that time will heal. Little by little. Like before these smell triggers would have send me straight into the black whole and for the most I wouldnt even be able to figure out what just happend.
Now I can tolerate the smell of spring - the snow that melts and the dirt...
Today I was in a black dumpster in my mind feeling unloved and unuseful going nowwhere. Had appointment with daughter since she needs advice for future choises. Just before we were to meet I was on the help line pouring out all the shit Ive been through and how unloved I feel. Thought I cancel...
Very old thread but yeah do I know abandonment fear. Something it seems I really would need to work on. Not sure how do since everyone seems to leave before I understand what happend and that I once again got hit by abandonment truck. Think also issue is how to connect with others as much as how...
Smells can be the worst ones to set me of @Deadman and under category Smells perfume is def the worst aka memories I dont want to remember. As its spring now there is a lot of smells that triggers faded memories, but these I can handle. Perfumes on the other hand can make me sick to my gut.
So I have a room mate and until today he didnt smell anything else but neutral. I came home and now he put on perfume. And not just any but the worst kind that triggers me and reminds me of things I dont want to be reminded of. Just trying not to breath to much when we are in the same room and...
I had to learn to ask for what I need. Im still in practice and I know its hard. But also a relieve to learn it. Then the answer youll get is clear. Hopefully you get what you need. A good long cuddle sounds great. Oxytocin.
Happy easter.
Go for a walk r sit down and explain what you need and ask if he can give it to you? Say you love him - assume you do - and want to be with him but this is the issues you struggle with?
Hope itll work out - wish you a good easter.
I dont really have so much smart things to say to you. Your life story made me cry. I can relate to so many things.
I just have man questions. Like - no one knows about you two exepet his car parked outside? What about his family? Does he talk with you about a future? Does he reassusre you that...
I so reckognice what you write. For me its like if I never expereinced compassion towards me - someone that care then how in the whole wide world should I know what the heck the whole ordeal is about?
Learning by experience - and my expereince as with you is neglect and violence. No wonder that...
Keep doing what you are doing. The brain takes time to change. Just like the body. They say it takes three month for the nevral system to register fysical change and the same goes for mental change too.
Cut of family for more then 15 years now. Felt guilty in the begining, but they made it very easy for me by really creating the worst drama and terrible scenarios when I was last in contact and they just made me realised by their really brute behaviour that I need to get the hell away from such...
Glad to come back to this thread - as it was ment to be today actually cause it gave me a clue to some of my issue namely people pleasing. After reading this thread again I realise I was raised to please "mother" tip toe aroud not to make the woman more ill, sick, angry, upset, mean, mad etc and...
Your titel is "I cant escape" . I want to tell you that you can escape. Yes it might take time. And it might (most probably) cause a lot of hardship and heartbreak and sorrow and anger. But there is a way out for sure and its worth to save every green moment in your life to hang in there and...
Im also terrible sorry to read all theyve done to you and all you had to survive. When I was 20 years old I thought my life was over. I didnt have any belive - just like you - that it would ever get better. It did. But - my life and me in in it has gotten better. Im so much more at peace now and...
I just think that if you are nt comfortable with your T no matter why its not going to work out ie not going to make you work out. She might be skilled but then there is the thig that is called chemistry. Sometimes we just dont get along wih another for what ever reason. In therapy, at work...