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Think your doing great work first of all. I read somewhere something about that trauma survivors can get stuck in a period of their life that they unconsciensly replay later. Myself I feel Im stuck in teenager phase. When Im grounded and "normal" adult its not a problem, but I can feel in...

@Lionheart777 - this: "I am coming to understand just how poorly I've been treated in the past because I now have something good, healthy and wonderful to compare it to. I believe this has opened my eyes as well as my heart and the result is lots and lots of both sad and happy tears" I feel...

Yes but I am working on it

A bit older then you and first in late thirties I learned to quit abusive relationships. Havent had one of those for 5 years now. Also I realise that its first now that Im growing up. Trauma taken up so many years of my life. Its sucks to learn to be grown up when you are well over being grown...

Been thinking about this all day actually then logged in and see youve written this post about it. Been thinking Ive experienced to much cruelty to belive that the world is what some say is a good place. Ive seen the dark side of people that other potray as nice. So part of trauma to me is that...

I dont have advice either. Trying to hang in there my self. Crisis plan seems like a good idea do. And I also thought for myself I need something nice to look for ward to. A small vacation. A break of from it all. It seems your doing ok do as you are aware of things. But we must take care not...

Hope it works out for you. I know it aint easy. Sending you good thoughts.

Im in a little bit situation like you aka Im economically forced to rent out my living room to strangers. In a situation where I need rest and recover. For my part I try to look at it like I need a plan for a long term solution and I need to accept that itll be hard for a period of time. Do...

I appreciate to hear Lauren. It took me long time myself / was a long process cause "mother" kept pulling me back with guilt, shame, blame, manipulation and God knows what. And "sister" too. But definetly one of the better choises I ever did in order to not mentally die, but instead move on...

I sign well done job on this hard task that takes courage and bravery to pull through. And yes - dont let your mother pull you in by her toxic words. Choose what is god for you and choose what takes care of you. Thats what matters and you mother should be crazy to not reckognice this. Take...

You are def not overreacting. This is serious concerns you bring up. Is there any way for you to lessen the contact with them? Tell them they are not welcome to your house cause of the smoking? Sending you good thoughts.

@Willi to be unemployed in addition to ptsd cause a lot of stress and less good feelings about one self so yes the cliche is crucial. One has to atleast fake that one belive in one self and maybe itll come true some day? Work is going fairly well so far, but I count months and not days and weeks.

@Willi Ive been striving real long to get the job. But I did. In the end. So hold on and hold out. I didnt belive it could come true at the end, but then there it was - the job offer. And - I was in a awefully lousy mood yesterday writing here - Ill correct myself today on 1) & 2) clean the...

Good thread :-) Problems: 1) Im alone / lonely - usually the one that initate contact with others as others doesnt seem to initate much contact with me 2) To much of a performer - good girl doing the good deeds to the point I get scik cant get food down the system cause of stress that seems...

Thanks the same and may this be a blessed new year for healing for us all

@Shankara yes I did think about moving away :) I hope hope hope and will dig in and do my best with new job to be be one step closer to that which is now merely a dream. I think Id need it anyways to get soe fresh air after all thats been said and done where Ive been and am living for now...

Good thread - no answers from me, but I wonder some of the same. Will follow.

D`aubin - sure. In a society of justice one would. When I went to police station to report the crimes done to me by family the poor policeman barely made it trough the rapes done by father and stepfather. When I also wanted to report mother trying to kill me he sighd and made a yawn and said oh...

@She Cat ok - unfortunately there is no place that is safe place. Ive stopped going to the gym a year ago. Next thing I know I see this guy again at my habital cafe...Its a small town and easy to encounter people unfortunately when it comes to people you dont want to encounter. He was even with...

Ah even the next moment is a kind of new morning ie a new possibility. For feeling something, to change, take action, feel something diferent etc. Sometimes I can sit and feel my fleeing emotions go from anxiety to happines to grieve and then contentment. Its a lesson. Tha emotions are merely...

@She Cat not sure what you ment by that comment?

Yes we are conditioned to belive in love in our ownn family and therefor it makes it so hard to come to terms its not so. I thought If only I were nicer, kinder, better in any and many yways mother dearest sister and the rest would show their kindness. I tought despite all the evidence of the...

Well done takin care for yourself :happy:

Ill also be here aroud the holidays as I refer christmas as if you need t chat. And yes to the part that Hodge says that we dont have to answer to anyone that calls. It can be a relive to know. To get distance to be able to work on your self and not get things ripped open tie after time.

I guess we want to have family in our life. Its normal I assume. A family that care and nurture for us that is. Part of going no contact is to acknolwedge that our family is not capabe of such. I think you can find unconditional love. From others then your family. I had similar situation like...