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As far as the abuse, if it matters to you, then it matters period.
As far as your relationship with your mother, and how you view it, it's just part of your baggage that she created. You won't be free until she dies, and maybe not even then. I know. I'm living it too. I'm living it with a...
Yes, everyone here has problems and are very supportive of each other. So this is a great place to come even if you may not want, or be able, to make changes in your life.
I guess there is a chance that he can improve while still taking some pills, but it is unlikely, especially when the pills make him lose contact with reality. Has he ever considered in-patient treatment? It may be best for both of you. At least you know the relationship is poisonous. That is good.
If your husband is still abusing drugs, he is going to continue to send your moods up and down. Although you do not want to live alone, maybe he should enter a treatment facility. I believe they are usually 28 days. That isn't too long. Maybe if you can live alone during that time, it will make...
You definitely are showing a more hopeful and positive side of you today. This is very different from yesterday. Could you be suffering from bi-polar in addition to social anxiety?
Maybe you are not independent, but I think you are strong. It's difficult to know when it's "love", and when it is dependency or obsession. I think even well-adjusted men and women often have problems with this. Many drug abusers never get well. You are in a very difficult position.
Are you...
Your English is good! There is no need to apologize for that. I think you are probably a lot stronger than you think you are. Even a confident and well-adjusted person would have difficulty being in a new country and having a husband with a drug problem. That sounds very scary and tiring, but...
I'm not per se against coco9's methodology. It's just that it's not necessary to go to that extreme. Just showing up at the hospital or at a police precinct saying that you are going to hurt yourself, will no doubt do the trick. But like others have said, it's just going to get you hospitalized...
I agree with Rosey. If you say you are suicidal and are on the verge of committing suicide, I would think they would have no choice but to get you treatment. At least that's how it is here in the USA.
I'm a lot like you. I know that guilt. I know that feeling that even when I do something good, I just feel like I did it for myself. I can never feel good about myself, because I see how every good deed I do is just to stop my guilt. I know that feeling that it was MY fault, that I deserved the...
I suppose you've made progress with him, or else you'd have stopped seeing him. But I wonder if choosing a female therapist may've been better for your condition.
The point I made is that the rapist isn't always motivated by dominance. I'll use stealing as an analogy. Some people get off on the thrill of having stolen something. Others steal solely because they want the item in question. Likewise a rapist can be motivated by the act of rape or he can be...
And I question those experts. Rape is happening all around us, all the time, and we're supposed to pretend that none of the rapists were opportunists who wanted sexual gratification. We're supposed to pretend that they are all driven by an urge to hurt the victim. Sounds like magical-thinking to...
I don't agree that rape is never about sex. Sometimes it is; sometimes it isn't. It affects the victim the same, but the predator is not always looking to dominate or control. It is shortsighted to think that there are no rapes that occur solely because the man wants sexual gratification from a...
I can relate. To me, the world is dark and evil. I've tried to tell myself it's not, but it doesn't work. But now I've started on an anti-psychotic, and it seems to be giving me glimpses of how the world really is.
My whole thought process is a control-mechanism. It's an elaborate system of checks and balances that prevents me from living a productive life and keeps me from having genuine feelings (99% of the time).
Maybe you aren't the only one affected. Maybe they're affected in other ways, and maybe they just keep it inside better. Maybe they indulge in secret deviant behavior yet seem perfect to the rest of the world. And I don't mean "deviant" as in consenting adult-play, I mean something far worse...
I can't offer any advice, but I can tell you that I feel the same way. I'm basically six years old though I've lived for 46 years. I've tried using positive affirmations, and I believe they can work, but you need to be in the right frame of mind to get there. I was there for a while and the...
Thank you for the welcome :)
I have access to therapy but have not been using it. My thinking is too fast and too layered to really get much out of psychotherapy. I've never had much luck with it. Reliving childhood experiences bring out a lot of emotion, but it never seems to fix anything.
I...
I stood up to my father twice when I was 18, and he cowered in fear. It didn't feel as good as it should've though. When they rape your mind for years, you don't even get to feel good about fighting back.
I was on Abilify for a short time and couldn't handle the akathisia. I didn't take it long enough to gain weight, so I can't answer that question. I just wanted to mention another side effect that made it a no-go for me.
I'm a 46 year old male. I've been diagnosed as having delusional disorder, but I also fit all the symptom clusters of PTSD. I could probably even be labelled schizo-affective and even borderline. I have no idea what I'm supposed to do in general, in life. I have no direction, no purpose. I have...