Distraction Is Good. When Its Over, Not Good

[Punky143]

When my mind is occupied by black and white everyday crap, things are just ok. The second it ends, thats when trouble begins. And so much emotions run through the shell of the body that stands here and writes this. I long to be someone consistant, one who has friends, one who doesn't view the world we live in as so untrustworthy and cruel. But for now, I will try and distract to get through another portion of this day....but it sucks and I hate this, all of it.

 

[PointlessExistence]

I can relate. To me, the world is dark and evil. I've tried to tell myself it's not, but it doesn't work. But now I've started on an anti-psychotic, and it seems to be giving me glimpses of how the world really is.

 

[Bloomy]

I can understand this completely. Try to find something you like. Something that can bring you small blissfull moments of somekind f joy. Ive learned to like nature and take photos. That gives me some peace that I need. Also I borrow a dog named Bobbie and he is truly my life savour.

 

[Punky143]

Thank u. I try and savor the small things but the interpersonal nonsense is so heavy right now. But Im trying. Sometimes "we" are willing, other times "we" aren't.

 

[ladee]

After many years on this journey, I still find interpersonal things too heavy to deal with on some days. It exhausts me. And just sounds like noise I want to get away from. I do understand.

 

[Zanshin]

I understand and empathize. I know the "fake it 'til you make it" theory, but I haven't been able to force myself to fake it to see if it works...