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    Feels like my boyfriend lacks empathy towards me

    I have been together with the same man for 7 years, and we have a 4-year old together. A couple of years ago, I began to address problems related to my childhood: Being raised by a mother who I think of as slightly narcissistic and tyrannically today. There was emotional, and also mild...
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    Did You Choose A Good Partner? Did I?

    I am so confused. Since Ive started therapy one and a half year ago and started working with my trauma and relationships, I have been, in the back of my mind, afraid that I chose a partner that cannot give me what I desire of empathy and love. Like my mother could not give me. I know I have...
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    What I Really Want To Ask My Therapist

    ~ Do you think its ok I am still seeing you? Or do you think I am complaining and weak? ~ Do you fear I am a bad mother because of my childhood? ~ Do you see my shame? ~ Do you think there is something important I am not telling you? ~ Do you believe in me? Anything you want to ask your...
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    Stalking Your Therapist

    This is a bit embaressing, but since I`ve started therapy, I also kinda stalk my therapist online. I am afraid I am a little too obsessed of him. I often go into his homepage to see if he has written anything new (and he never does), and to read the same sentences over and over again - what he...
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    Need More Than Therapy Once A Month?

    In my area it seems to be a lot of options for those who has experienced sexual trauma in childhood. There are support-groups, centres, and a lot of offers - even free therapy. Sexual abuse is horrible, and I understand that the focus is important and I am glad there are so many ways to seek...
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    Hard Days At Work

    I`ve had a couple of really hard days at work. I work in the telemarketing business - its temporarily, but I thought I would try it. It`s ok actually, but lately my results been bad. I go to work and I hate myself. I then get negative response from customers. Then I hate myself a little bit...
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    The Pain And Tiredness After Therapy

    When it is painful (after) therapy where you have been talking about your childhood/trauma, still after a 6 month break without talking about it, does that mean I should talk some more about it? Or will it be painful everytime I talk about my trauma in therapy?
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    My Mind Going "hyper" In Therapy

    I have this problem that my mind goes "hyper" in therapy sometimes. I suffer from intrusive thoughts - although it does not really interrupt my daily functioning that much. It is mostly visuals stuff - often sexual images. Often my therapist is involved in these pictures, therefore I cant...
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    Childhood Shame- Now I Get The Feeling

    I think I have hidden away the feeling of shame - until now. I thought of it yesterday when I finally put myself together and went to the hairdresser, and I both hated it and liked it. I hated that my looks were in the centre of attention - at the same time it felt good to treat myself. But I...
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    What If My Therapist Thinks I Should Move On?

    So I have been in therapy for almost a year now , but I have only been there like once a month - I cant afford more. I have talked through my trauma (most of it, I think) and my relationship with my mother. The last 3 or 4 sessions we have not talked about my childhood, after my wishes - it...
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    Do You Have Clear Goals For Therapy?

    I was just wondering...I keep reading that a good psychologist sets goals together with the patient in beginning of therapy. I have not really talked about my goals for therapy with my therapist. I came into therapy in some sort of crisis and I just needed to talk about my mother and my...
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    When Is It Time To Stop Therapy? (when Are You Fixed?)

    I`ve been in therapy for like 10 months. But I have only been there once a month, sometimes twice - I simply can not afford more, even though my therapist has made an reduced price. In the beginning I felt like it was not enough - I was struggling and I was in some sort of crisis. I felt...
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    Light

    So....I have probably been "clouded" for a long time now - always worrying, thinking about trauma and difficult issues. But during these last few months I have felt this sense of "light" a few times. It is like some cloud disappear, and for a second or two everything looks brighter - does...
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    Afraid Of My Therapist - Is This A Flashback?

    So yesterday during my therapy, my therapist came a little closer physically than he normally does. Just a little, bending forward, trying to maintain eye-contact. Normally I dont get afraid, but I swear this time I got really frightened of his nearness. I wanted to run and remove myself from...
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    Just Started A New Job - Fatique And Pressure

    I just started a new job within telecommunications 10 days ago. I have never worked within the area before (this is within sales) and I am actually an academic. But since it is so difficult for me finding a relevant job, I decided to give this a chance, thinking that I would like to develop my...
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    Afraid I Have Schizophrenia

    Maybe it is just anxiety and mistrust, but last time at my therapist office I got the feeling that my therapist was indicating I got schizophrenia. I do not think he was indicating it deliberately, but several of the things he said and asked for pointed in that direction. I know a little about...
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    And Now I Have To Tell This In Therapy?

    I have not told my therapist that I occasionally have some sexual intrusive thoughts. These thoughts tends to appear when I am close to someone physically (not very close, but at least in the same room). It does not happen very often, but in therapy quite a lot. Once in a while these thoughts...
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    Correcting thoughts

    Does anybody here suffer from bad "self-talk" that seems to be totally out of your control sometimes? These thoughts have become a huge problem for me, as they are intrusive. Its like I can not control them coming, but I can try to correct the thoughts afterwards. Seems difficult, though...
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    Childhood Wanting To Safe Your Parents

    I have been in therapy for the last 7 months or so. We have talked a lot about my mother, which also was my abuser. I have asked my self, is she a psychopath, is she a narcissist? I don`t know, and I will perhaps never now. I am starting to accept that I will not fully understand her or her...
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    Good Idea To Take A Break?

    I started therapy this summer, since I kind of "hit a wall". I was in despair, and stuff from childhood started to affect me. In therapy I`ve been talking about my trauma and my life as unemployed. At one point I started to notice, that I during sessions, found myself in a "half dissociated...
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    Childhood Don`t Want To Remember

    My first post here was about fear of therapy. I guess this post is about the same in some way. This is hard for me to write about - I dont know how to adress this issue, and I kind of need your help. Like I explained in an earlier post, a fear of sexual abuse in my childhood has comed to the...
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    Therapist Not Answering Mail

    I wrote my therapist a week ago, asking for a new session. He answered the next day, proposing a time, I am not able to come. So I wrote to him if we could find another time. Now its been six days and he has not answered. I hate that it makes me anxious, but it really does. I am thinking maybe...
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    Childhood Trauma, Therapy And Fear

    Hey I am new here, been reading a little while though (I hope my English is understandable, English is not my first language). I have some thoughts I need to get out here and maybe get some feedback on. A few months ago I started therapy - I went to a rough period in life and began grieving...
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