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Awesome Moo. Glad to see your post. Actually I'm superglad. Keep trucking there dude.

Hi! It's great to see you here and even though I'm a noob I feel tons of validation just by reading other's threads. So you are worried about the crazy label. I've been dxed with everything from social anxiety to schizophrenia. But I'm not crazy. I'm a person and so are you. Also, don't get...

First I have to say it was very wrong of your companion to do that to you and it may not have traumatized you by your reasoning but it is still affecting you in some way. Do you have a therapist or thinking of finding one? Maybe a sex therapist could give you relaxation techniques. As far as...

When my dad's dog starts bucking my armpit for attention when I just got done giving him a good chest rub a second earlier. When my niece over puckers for a kiss goodbye. When my sister's Siamese cat comes up to say hello but then leaves right away to pick on Addy the Shitzu. I have this thing...

I don't know how to feel about this other than to say I don't think he did society any favors by desensitizing people's never ending appetite regarding intimacy. As a civil rights writer I find him worthy of getting a flower on his grave at least on an annual basis. The bunny business appalls me...

@watundah Cats are bad listeners but they are some of the best Zen teachers ever. I cannot add to what's been written thus far rather I will say I also do alot of mind changing regarding coming or going. I used to be a big yes person to everyone regardless of how I felt but I'm slowly...

Hi! I've used humor for so long as a big bubble surrounding me that I felt no one could pop. I eventually learned the folly of this from folks who I thought were my friends. As one poster said that its a good thing to weed out the toxic creatures that poison the earth. So I will use humor but...

Good move on waiting. So you were saying to yourself when she confronted you about all of those past abuses. I think that is great that you acknowledge that to yourself because you don't owe her anything as she knows what she did. Yes cooking and cleaning are great but scars can run deep. You...

I don't want to be a ten year old again as that's too painful but to go younger like around before kindergarten when the world was safe and so big I find that joyous. I think I take it to the extreme by actually being a child, Legos and such, though I may be misunderstanding the concept of your...

Yes GERD and IBS. I also vomit at the first sign of nervousness. It's nice to be vomiting in a Wal-Mart parking lot and have old folks slow their car to watch. I'm on Rantididine (sorry too lazy to spell check) for the GERD. And IBS is just a mystery @Ragdoll Circus You go! Tell that tummy...

I remember, very vaguely, a single moment of pain that shouldn't have been there then all is black. But alot of my flashbacks involve pictures. I remember very clearly being pinned though. I remember my surprise as at first I felt it was a game.

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I'm so sorry Mumbalina. I hope you can heal in time. I was basically treated like a ragdoll by this older playmate and the sex abuse I still don't get. I want to heal and forgive and maybe that is possible but forgetting is impossible. I've never been married as the scars are too deep. One thing...

Oh yes very relatable. Living wise I have a super small efficiency and I haven't worked for 8+ years. I have no friends aside from one person who has always been there. Me being a depressive resulted in other people giving up as I guess I'm just not worth the effort. I wish I had some words of...

Of course and you are very welcome. I totally get the adult abuse as well as a result of childhood abuse. I have problems setting boundaries and asserting myself to others. I grew up with an alcoholic father and remember going hungry during school lunches many times so he could spend his...

I will pick up other books as well from time to time. So do you see a therapist or anyone? I read that you are lonely but I thought I'd ask anyhow. I also have problems sleeping and flashbacks as past trauma can wreck havoc on soul and body. Can I ask how long you've been struggling? I was...

I love art including poetry, photography, and even the five minute sketch. I only have about 55 poems on allpoetry but it's a good stress reliever. What do you like to read? I'm into classic literature and the American Civil War.

Hi there. Nice to have you here. I wish I could tell you when or how it will get better but I haven't been on this forum long though I find everyone here to be warm compassionate people. What's on your mind or more importantly what do you want out of your mind?

I need to research the sexual abuse because I was so young when it happened that I need to understand the mechanics of it and categorize it. My T says I have a thing for categories as I feel if it can't be labeled and shelved my mind goes amiss. But such things like my alcoholic parents or...

I thought the gut punches and name calling we're just normal boyhood behavior even D exposing himself. I didn't understand the sexual trauma to know better and since I was threatened with death I must have done something wrong.

I think my childhood physically ended after the sex abuse at the age of ten. Emotionally I'm not sure. But mentally I try to keep some of my inner child alive at 34 by playing Legos or whatever fancies me. Now at ten and onward I looked like a child but I was just an animated multi-celled...

I'm 33 and I just recently told my mom and gramma about my own abuse. I blocked it out for so long that it came back with a vengeance. They are supportive which I'm grateful for. But I don't have any plans of telling anyone else besides my care team.

Thank you for asking this question OP. Oh yes I do the same old song and dance routine but with me I always fall on my rear end. My therapist said this is common. You are not alone and I wish you the best. :)

Hi. I'm a 34 year old male from a small town in the U.S. I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and am seeing a talk therapist and have been under the care of a psychiatrist for the past ten years. I've been on SSDI for the past seven years though every job I've held was super stressful so...