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So I found out today my SSDI has been approved on my initial application. I am happy, but feel so bad about it. I feel like a total waste. This can't be my life.

Sorry, I haven't been on in awhile...a lot has happened. I went for my mental CE yesterday with a psychologist. She asked nothing of my symptoms or life events. Just memory type of questions. Really lady of I could give my memories away I would. I have never stayed I have memory lose just have...

What if what I was told is correct? What if I can't keep a container or door closed? What if I really go insane!? I know there are always people that have had it worse than me. I don't know if it would be so bad if it was only me. I am the second oldest of 6. I watched and saw what was done to...

I have had anxiety for as long as I can remember everyday for at least 5 years. My chest hurts daily and it feels like my heart skips beats. It has become a normal for me. Over the past 5 years maybe once a month is would go into a full blown panic attack. For the last year and a half I have...

I don't even know where to start. I started back in T because my PTSD, Panic Disorder and Anxiety were acting up bad. I have been seeing this T for almost 2 months. She suggested I see a psychiatrist. I had an appointment at the end of Sept. The office called me and said that they have a new Doc...

Dear (he has my full name listed here) I am letter B my sister letter A and the first person I told of abuse is letter D. CH and CI are friends me and my sister had. DE is my older brother. JU is my abusers sister. this is my last letter & this is my Good bye to you & {{{ I did everything in my...

My PTSD came from childhood abuse. My mother's boyfriend was charged and is still in prison. Do I need to get a copy of the case from the courts to show my traumatic event that caused my PTSD? Also I know this sounds weird, but years ago I wrote to my abuser through an online letter thing called...

So my T told me today that she thinks I have both PTSD and Panic Disorder. I have never been told I have panic disorder but over the years got mood disorder, PTSD, chronic PTSD, ADD, anxiety and maybe a slight bi-polar. I think so many symptoms cross over that they have no clue what I am fully...

So I took the first step and applied for SSDI. I'm scared but proud that I finally pushed myself to do it. I don't know what they will say. I have 15 years of medical records dating back from when I was under 18. Do they even look at files from when you were under 18? The only thing I am...

I did the first step and went back to T after years of trying to self manage. I have never heard of EMDR, but the more I see I am scared. I have learned to bury my memories so deep that I am numb. I can easily say I was abused as a child with no emotion or that my life feels like hell. I am...

I have suffered since as long as I can remember (early childhood I'm sure). I have never really told my story before. I have always been very good at playing normal. If only they knew the screaming and pain going on inside of me. Some of my traumatic events (in no specific order): -Sexual...

I have had PTSD since I was a teenager do to abuse among other things. I have always wanted to be normal, so have pretty much learned how to act normal most of the time. I walked out of my job last year (job of 9 years) after I was put into a panic attack. I was actually told to go home and they...