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Part of my trauma is medical related as well, and I find pretty much anything remotely medical hugely triggering, so I know how you feel. I know it sucks right now and you're triggered, but I think you really showed a lot of strength in how you handled the situation. You wanted to run out, but...

Sadly, we can't trust anyone, including the professionals, to respect our rights or give us what we're entitled to. The only way to have a chance in the system is to research and advocate hard for yourself, which can easily become as overwhelming and time-consuming as a full-time job! I've said...

I've had some people turn away from me because of my mental problems, but it's been my experience that for every person who chooses not to be involved with me because of my problems there will be another person who reaches out because they have depression or trauma or some other brain cootie...

I've given up on anything resembling dieting. Both my parents were overweight from childhood on, and it's just my genetic destiny to be a fat caterpillar. Plus I'm very weird about food. If I can't have what I like, then I just won't eat at all, and what I like mostly consists of carbs. Offer me...

I fully agree with you, Go Hungry. When I first heard the name "Men's Rights Movement" years ago I imagined a group founded to combat the severe lack of services for male rape and domestic violence victims. Clearly I'm not jaded enough. The Men's Rights Movement almost makes me sorry we have...

I assume it was given for anxiety, not for depression. Risperdal is one of several atypical anti-psychotics I've seen prescribed off-label for anxiety because they can have a potent calming effect. Why these drugs are often tried before Trifluoperazine, a dopamine antagonist which is actually...

This is very, very true. I had a strangely comfortable fit with my fiance right from the beginning and it was based more on things like humor and communication style than anything having to do with looks. He's not a match to my physical "ideal", but that ends up becoming irrelevant under layers...

Thank you all so much for your kind responses. They really do help. You're probably right about this. I know that bad experiences from the past are driving my reactions now. The problem is that therapy has never helped me in the past. I have general trust issues which are magnified by intense...

I had to Google that; I'd never heard of it before. It sounds interesting, but I'm not sure where I'd find someone that practiced that or if it would help. I do have dreams and a long list of things I'd like to do. The problem is they're all emotionally, physically, and/or financially out of...

Ever since my last trauma in January, and especially since my fiance has fallen into the depressive side of his Bipolar Disorder, I've been in a depression I can't get free from. And, frankly, I don't see any reason why I shouldn't be depressed. My mental health isn't good enough to go through...

Welcome to the forums. I'm glad you got a diagnosis and can start working towards healing.

I feel this too and it's so hard to deal with. I logically know the problems the people around me have can't really be my fault, but when everyone has so many problems I'm left feeling like the common denominator is me and that they would be better off if I ended the relationships and went away...

The small town I grew up in was like that. I was glad to leave, though it didn't solve all my problems the way I hoped it would. I don't really participate much in the community I now live in, which I guess is a good way to keep any problems from developing. I still often wish I could move again...

Heh, it's really not a matter of strength. It's just that the therapy wasn't helping, so it seemed silly to keep paying for it. I still have days when I'm non-functional, mostly because of depression. I've had a fair amount of success with learning DBT from workbooks, though it's mostly...

There are things you can do on your own to help promote healing. You can journal, do CBT and DBT exercises from workbooks, practice grounding techniques and meditation on your own. Since you still have a psychiatrist, you could look into taking an antiadrenergic drug (i.e. beta blockers) to help...

I've seen some of those jokes in online gaming communities. They're disgusting, and luckily my family and friends have the same reaction. One thing that never fails to p*ss me off is when people say "Oh, if someone raped my sister/girlfriend/friend, I would <insert something dumb and heroic>"...

@gizmo I just have to say that the way you wore black for a while to support your daughter is awesome. So was your exit from Scientology, lol. You sound like a very smart, independent-minded person. It took me a long time to understand how intelligent people could be sucked into Christian cults...

Gizmo, your post pretty much describes a situation I was in, except my mother was the one abused by Christians at her most vulnerable and I was the gothic daughter. I also saw my first love emotionally destroyed and ultimately formed in the image of the abusers by a very f-ed up group of...

The ocean really is incredibly calming, always assuming you can find a quiet beach that isn't filled with nitwits running around and yelling, lol. I wish I lived nearer to one too.

I fantasize about what I'd like to do to the abusers. I write violent books where the evil people always get what they deserve and the characters I identify with are never left powerless. I read dark, violent books like Joe Abercrombie and Stephen King. I watch revenge fantasy movies like...

My PTSD stems from the same cause, and I have the same reaction you do, at least to issues which I feel relate to the horrible things I've had to witness. I get triggered and extremely angry and confrontational, which is why I try to avoid debates for the most part. However, when people put...

I could've written your post, piglet. I do NOT react well to authority of any kind or being told what to do. I'll do the opposite of what I'm told or ignore the order just to prove I can and that they have no power over me, even when doing so is detrimental to me. Anyone who tries to give advice...

Welcome to the forums. I've also often felt I don't "deserve" the same diagnosis as people who've survived things like child abuse and rape. In fact, I denied the diagnosis for years because I didn't feel anything "bad enough" had happened to me to justify PTSD. Denying it only worsened my...

I can't really rate the severity of triggers. Either something triggers flashbacks and dissociation or it doesn't, more like an on/off switch. It usually takes me a few days after for the symptoms to go away.

I'm very sorry that happened to you. Being abandoned in a public place in such a state must've been terrifying. I'm glad you didn't get physically hurt. Maybe your boyfriend didn't understand the severity of what was happening to you? Trying to give him the benefit of the doubt, because if he...