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I been think on how I really feel but can't really get there so I'm say overwhelmed.

That my expectations to healing and how long it will take is to high. I now have to face that this will be life long journey. To not look at myself as week because I can't move on from all that has happened to me in a short amount of time.

Why is it so hard to feel anything. When I try it's just an empty feeling even if I'm crying I don't really understand why when it's just a pit in my stomach. I hope one day I can identify with my feelings.

Took a long walk in the rain. I had an umbrella but I didn't want to use it. Listen to music and let the rain fall on me.

I'm finally home just a long day.

At work day already started.

I have been tired after therapy but this is beyond me. This is my first time going in depth with my trama though. I was not expecting this. Thank you.

I been in and out on this site. Me and my T was going over my trama in more depth since she need to pin point we're the patters for my EMDR. Just talking about part of the tramas I went through took a toll on my body. I feel like I have a fever and my head hurts. I tried some of the grounding...

1950's oldies but goodies. I'm just in the mood to listen to this right now. Wish I could go ballroom dancing and just dance anyway.

Went to work it wasn't to bad but I had to stay an hour over because my shift release was not there. Then I found out what the mile high club really means. I thought it was someone getting high on a plane 🤣😹🤣😹 Sometimes I laugh at the things I thought I knew but didn't. I haven't been on here...

When I'm overwhelmed or just stress I tend to throw stuff away then I normally do. I have a little fridge in my room and I just want to throw it away. It works just fine just a little dirty but of course not only did someone buy it for me but I need it so trying to find a different way to handle...

Tired Overwhelmed Irritated Numb Frustrated So far this year is not off to a good start.

My part of the fridge the land lords family just put there stuff right in it and it has my name so I'm confused. I hope they leave soon cause they been here almost a month now. I'm about to go crazy.

Learning to laugh and smile with out having my brain go in to shame mold. It's ok to be hesitant just give yourself time with out forcing it. The feeling wheel has helped me. Which is saying a lot because I still go in to numb mold but been talking about being sad and knowing when I'm...

I feel like the confident under my name is lying. 😂😂 I'm not confident at all wish it still said learning. Shame Shame More Shame

I saw how other parents treated there kids so normal was not the same for them as it was for me. Didn't think it was bad just this is my normal. Normal is waking up in the middle of the night and seeing a flashlight though your window and knowing it's time for the game. My dad would chase...

Yes everyone has there meltdowns. That's why in stores or whatever people get in to random fights cause the person forgot the drink when really it has nothing to do with the drink. My meltdowns most of the time are internalize in my body or mind. I can't allow my self to fly off the handle...

Always numb it's never ending.

I just feel like there is a dark hole in my stomach area were I store my emotions. I been trying to do what my T says Invision stuff but it works for a little and I'm back to feeling nothing. People say eating more helps I been eating a meal for the past week and nothing. Still no energy and I...

I feel numb. It's another year I'm doing my best to be optimistic. My T wants to start going though my childhood trama and I want to but just so scared to dig deep into it. I need to and I will but gosh how to start and not go crazy. I just want to start over. I don't know if I'm pushing people...

Just got home from work. The rain for what ever reason makes me hyper. Storm and all just makes me relaxedand feels like I can take on the world. The feeling when it is raining and after just brings something different to me. Can't believe it it's almost 2023 time flies. I will see what God has...