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Hi there, I have read that PTSD and OCD commonly co-occur. I was diagnosed with Tourrette's when I was about 7. I was not diagnosed with OCD but I know for myself that I had it then too. They hit me at the same time. By then I had already incurred severe trauma (loss of parents and abuse by...

That's true, talk therapy generally does little to nothing for PTSD. But it seems there are therapies that can be effective for PTSD, even when it is the result of "complex trauma," as it sounds your case is (as well as mine). I relate to wanting to just be able to manage the symptoms so as to...

I see. My heart goes out to you. The loss of any family or loved ones is tragic enough, but experiencing the permanent loss of a parent as a child is too clearly a blow that will affect one into perpetuity if left untreated. I can relate to the repeated traumas later on that sort of solidified...

HighwayToHell, I am sorry to hear that. : ( Just to be clear, things in my relationship are fine again. My meltdown was more extreme in myself than between the two of us, so my partner is fine... She just said she felt guilty for triggering me and that she would try to be more transparent (my...

I just had a horrible moment! I had been doing well for a few days (more or less) until tonight when I was trying to converse with my partner and she was just very absent. She later admitted to not having been emotionally invested in the conversation. I could pick up on it and that instantly...

Hey, thanks for checking in! It has been OK. I still am waking up at night with what seems to be flashbacks and fear/sadness. I also have been more susceptible to strong feelings that everyone hates me, that we are all meaningless, and I can get triggered at random moments and it causes me to...

That is very kind and especially meaningful to me that you wrote in a poetic form. Thank you for your extremely kind correspondence through the course of this thread.

I just want to make a quick note... I did EMDR today with my therapist and it was earth-shatteringly beautiful. I feel like... everything that is happening inside of me has been gasping for air, for attention, for... release! I cried a lot during the session but apart from just at times...

Well put. : )

There is never physical violence between my partner and I, just to be clear. All that I do is say things about how I think she's going to leave me or cheat on me, or how she should in fact go be with her ex or something. I also will try to put blame on her about our long distance in a...

Thank you so much. To be sure, I feel scared of the future (undoubtedly there will be an uphill battle, a "marathon"), but I indeed must take it one step, one thing at a time. Can I ask... Have any of you found personally effective ways to notice and stop angry outbursts from happening? What...

@HighwayToHell Yes that all makes great sense. My therapist suggested that when I feel angry because something triggers me into thinking my partner is betraying/cheating on me I not say anything to her about it but instead thrash about on my own, yell if I have to, and just let all the...

@HighwaytoHell Thank you for your kindness and understanding. It really means a lot to me... Writing has always been therapeutic for me, so indeed I will keep doing that. What is really disturbing me now is how out of control I feel regarding my fear of abandonment. I am trying to take the...

I hope somebody does. It's truly hellish. Thanks for the replies here, everyone.

@HighwaytoHell Sorry, I fell asleep before seeing your comment. It would have been nice to talk a bit... Interestingly enough, I think I am experiencing PTSD-related sleep disturbances. A few nights ago I awoke after about three hours of sleep having a panic attack, thinking that I was going...

I am seeing my college counselor in the morning... Other than that I have no one to talk to right now. I wish I were in better treatment. The gig with the college counselor is very temporary and it's essentially just talk therapy. I need real help... I think about killing myself often because...

Hi, I am having an earth-shattering, extremely distressing moment... My partner told me that she is not happy, that she has deteriorated emotionally since being in our relationship... This is because of how my PTSD manifests itself. I need constant reassurance and have angry outbursts. I go...

I just want to say I relate extremely well to both of you and I find some slight comfort in that...

I try so blanking hard, and still PTSD wins out when I get triggered. Isn't it lovely how people who abuse you can give you PTSD, the gift that keeps on giving, so that long after they are out of your life, you still are incapable of feeling safe and preventing yourself from acting like a total...

Update: We had a much needed heart-to-heart and things are completely repaired for the time being. I am still nervous about when again I will be triggered but for now I feel relief. It was hard to get to that point of talking things out because we both were stressed out by my issues but we...

Hello all, Thanks for the reality in your messages. The fear of abandonment is really driving me crazy. I spend all day almost everyday expecting that I will be betrayed or abandoned by my girlfriend, regardless of what she does to convince me otherwise (which is not a lot right now -- she is...

Hello, I am aware that many people with PTSD spend much of their life choosing to abstain from intimate/romantic relationships. I can certainly understand why. I am in a committed relationship (with the mutual intention of being partnered for life) and boy is it something of a nightmare for me...

Good idea. I actually had a nightmare about that very thing last night.

Thank you all for the replies! That is very encouraging! I unfortunately have already purchased the tickets to fly there and would be remiss to skip going home because there are several other people that I am very much looking forward to visiting. It would just be nice if I had a place I knew I...

The last time I saw him this had not yet happened so he never explicitly made a statement about how I should maintain that relationship with my adoptive mother. I can ask him next Monday. Until then, I suppose I will have to tread lightly and continue to consult my adoptive father as he is...