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What makes me angry is the possible rejection I'm facing tonight. Beautiful lady I'm interested in is having a "closure talk" with her ex, who is a deadbeat drunk with more anger issues than me (!), and leaves town for weeks at a time for "work", and never calls her. We all know how "closure"...

You know you're depressed when the Mumford & Sons your ex-wife put on your phone is still playing in lieu of Trivium or Machinehead...

Man, it's been a really long time. Divorce is final, CPT is done, and I'm on sertraline, which slightly helps. I'm still angry, but mostly at her for not trying to understand once I started CPT. She thought it was going to be over after 12 weeks, even though she was told right at the start...

I felt abandoned when I went through my trauma, but it was just a fleeting thought, as I don't really remember much after it happened, and I had already dove into alcohol before giving it a second thought. I turned my back on Him because I felt that no God would make me go through the things I...

Well, I knew it wouldn't be easy! Thanks for your insight, everyone. I love this place.

This is EXACTLY what happened to me on 300mg Welbutrin. I lost it. I became paranoid, aggressive, and angry. I scared my wife so bad that any idea she had of stopping our divorce was gone. I refuse to take medication because I don't want to scare her like that again.

I only get those dreams when she's not around. She's a bartender. She works late, and very far away, and chooses not to come home. She often stays at her parents, or goes out with friends. It's the uncertainty that gets to me. Perhaps it's a flaw in my thought process; I feel that if she...

It's the anxiety that keeps up from being with other people. There's always the fear that we may be "too damaged" to know them. It took me years to finally work up the courage to go out on my own. What I learned was that people were just as "damaged", but in their own way. One guy takes his...

I feel you. I couldn't handle school. The social anxiety crippled me in class. I couldn't work with the other students. Hell, I could barely talk to them. I was only able to connect with other military students, of which there were few. I even had a dream job making stupid amounts money...

I used to suffer nightmares every single night. They were horrifying recreations of the source of my PTSD. From leaving the gate to pulling the trigger, it was all replayed with chilling accuracy. I even made the same moved in Final Fantasy Tactics Advance that I was playing with a friend...

He's not taking the easy way out, and he's not letting you go. This was the hardest part for me. His depression is setting in, and he's questioning his self-worth. I became incredibly suicidal when I hit this phase. I never formulated a plan, but I knew I would someday. I would tell my wife...

It has to be his idea. One day he will understand what he put you and your family through, hopefully sooner rather than later. The longer he waits, the more the pain sets in and eats away at him.

Even though it's over, you two can only benefit from watching a video over on the MyCombatPTSD.com forum. I can't post links yet, but log in (you can use the same login, since it's a sister site), click on Media, and click on "You're Not In The Forces Now".

In my case, I vowed to get myself better. I signed up for PTSDForum before I even made an appointment with a therapist, and I started to slide. It started as frustration with my supporter because I felt she didn't care to learn about PTSD (a cognitive error on my part, come to find out). Then...

CBT is working wonders for me. It's hard to slow my thoughts down enough to process them, but it's worth it. I feel less stress, less anxiety, and I've even lost weight from it! The downside to CBT is that there is so much going on in my head, something eventually breaks through and I dwell...

I pushed my wife away because I thought I was protecting her. I never snapped, but I was scared that I would drag her down and I felt she deserved better. Still, I was selfish and still madly in love with her as I am today, so I never had the courage to leave so she could have a better life...

Communication sucks. It's just seems impossible to talk to someone who can't possibly understand what's rattling around in your head. It took a toll on my wife, trying to figure out how to talk to me when I refused to talk to her. I thought, "She can't help me. She doesn't know what it's...

Man, has it been 3 months? So I'm in the final week of my marriage, and the third session of therapy. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. I needed this YEARS ago! I went in to therapy with my triggers already identified, and we worked on ways to avoid my triggers, which unfortunately there is no...

My wife still sees me as a monster, as do most people who have only known me fore the past few years. It hurts when I see the look of fear and pity in their eyes, but it gives me strength to better myself and make amends. There really is nothing you can do if he doesn't want help, but if he is...

So, we were doing spectacular for a couple of weeks until she went to my doctor with me. He suggested an anti-depressant, just in case I start to regress. She thought it was a good idea, even though I was still hesitant. However, for her, I obliged. I was given Welbutrin. It has side...

New to the forum, not PTSD.

Spoke with this jerkoff yesterday over the phone, because apparently that's how the VA does things now. He wants to adjust my meds since everything is going just TOO peachy for me. Promoted at work, wife stayed with me after my monster almost scared her away forever, and I actually shampooed...

If he found the video "boring", then he is not ready to help himself. It took my wife leaving with the kids for days at a time, only communicating via texts to make sure I didn't kill myself. That much time alone with my thoughts (and a Lifetime movie during semi-consciousness) made me realize...

So, I guess this can all be attributed to half-dose of Welbutrin, an Aussie veteran, and a lifetime movie I only heard while in the stage of sleep where you can hear everything, but still dream something different. The mind is a f*cked up thing! She's been spending a lot of time with...

Check out the media section and watch, "You're not in the forces now", then convince him to watch it. Worked for me. I treated my wife and children the exact same way he is treating you. I was on the verge of divorce, even had the papers drawn up. Now, when I wake up in the morning, my whole...