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Yeah, maybe you're right. I think it is really common in our community. It's scary to think about.

I'm sorry for their and your loss. My dad past away 3 years ago and it hasn't gotten much easier. That is a great reason to stay. I think I stay for my mom. I wouldn't want or at least mean to hurt her like that.

I'm sorry you struggle with this too. I don't want to make an decisions I'll regret. I hope it gets better.

Thank you for validating my thoughts, I struggle with doing that for myself lol. Tend to minimize how I feel. That does scare me. The first time was just a flip of a switch. Thought about it for a long time but then all of the sudden all I could think was I want to sleep and not wake up. Didn't...

Thank you. I can't afford one right now, but hopefully soon. I will see though if my college does. That's great advise.

Hugs are great thank you for your reply too! Really helped.

A few years ago, I was heavily medicated, in therapy, and a danger to myself. Tried to commit suicide twice. And wound up in the hospital. Twice. I've come a long way. I'm not medicated, I'm not in therapy, and I haven't tried anything. BUT. To this day, I think about it. I want to do it and be...

Honestly I don't know. Am I coming or am I going? From the outside my life looks pretty normal. Well you see, it's not. I was diagnosed with PTSD a few years ago right out of high school. And I had a nervous breakdown of sorts. Tried to kill myself. Twice. Took alot of meds. Talked (listened...

No I did not. My T even set up having me speak with a retired sheriff. He gave me good advice, which is why I didn't report. Very scary. It happened so long ago. Still regret not reporting, but it was my decision to make I guess. My mom did tell his parents, it was a family "friend". And his...

Dylan, you've come so far and through so much. Please don't give up. We are here for you and while we weren't there and don't know what it's like to be you, we can understand how it feels to be used, abused, unloved, and unwanted. It's hard feeling like you have no money and nobody to care for...

Hey Pinkdew! I'm sorry to hear that you are experiencing these scary flashbacks. I know just how hard losing a parent too soon can be. I think what's important is to give yourself plenty of credit. You've been through something very traumatic and something is definitely not right. Whether it's...

I've been having a really hard time being around friends lately. I get super quiet when a lot of people are around which is weird for me, I haven't always been that way. I just want to escape when I'm around them, like yesterday a friend of mines husband had a birthday party and I just felt...

Thank you for listening. I have been trying and I have been very aware of the amount of iron I need, but I have to be really careful because you can overdose on oral iron. So I am taking the maximum possible and am still declining. That is what conclusion I have come to. There is a free clinic...

So I have been pretty sick lately. I am anemic and just got out of the hospital 3 weeks ago. Apparently I was getting sick for years, but who knew? Everybody was just so quick to blame me. That I'm lazy or unmotivated. Meanwhile I'm over here slowly bleeding out and not able to physically get...

Thank you both <3 This is helpful. I am just really nervous and embarrassed about it. What if I look different from everyone else she has seen? Or if I miss a hair? lol. And then from a PTSD aspect I'm freakishly scared it's going to feel the same or that I'll be sent into a panic attack... Ugh...

So, where do I even begin?? I guess from the beginning. I have felt tired everyday of my life for a good couple years now. Which isn't fun let me tell you. But for the last few months, it has been life altering, how exhausted I am. I will get up after sleeping 10-12 hours and sit on the couch to...

Hey thank you. This is a good idea.. I think I'm going to buy some for those times where I can't get myself out of the moment.

Wow! I thought it was just me. Sometimes it is totally out of the blue too. It is consistent in what sounds bother me, but not when. Here it goes-- The sound of loud eating and utensils hitting the plate, the clicking of computer keys/mouse, cars going by outside but only at night.

Like just now my mom was eating and the sound of the fork hitting the side of the plate was like torture. I had to hold my ears and it was all I could concentrate on.

Thank you all very much. Some of it was hard to hear, but I'm grateful for all of your advice and honesty. I just cant help but think their is no help for me. I dont know why I cant shake the feel of hopelessness, doom, like I'm just going to fade away. The state I live in is scarce as far as...

Thank you, @hodge. You made me a feel better in regards to going forward. Luckily, I do have a lot of that documentation. That's actually the first step I'm taking is requestimg my medical records from a couple years ago. Because I was hospitalized twice under the care of a psychiatrist which is...

I'm just not doing well. When I say chest pain it is almost daily. When I was rushed to the ER, I went through several EKGs, cardiac blood work, the whole 9 yards. And it all came back fine but they could clearly see my pulse/heart rate were off the charts.

Thank you all. I'm learning a lot through your experiences put here. A few things I'm worried about though.. I'm fairly young. I'm 22. Their wasnt a trial for the crime that happened to me. I'm still working because I have to. If I didn't, I would be homeless. But working is effecting my...

Thank you! That is great advice. Some things I didn't even think about. That is a difficult thing though... I never filed a police report because I was a victim of a crime before I even knew it was a crime. But, I do have a lot of hospital documentation

I was diagnosed with PSTD about 4 years ago and it has been some ride, I got to tell ya. Yes, I have been hospitalized a few times throughout the years. In the past it was usually because of suicidal thoughts that I couldn't get past (which I still struggle with tbh but I do my best). Lately...