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I was diagnosed with ADHD as a child. That may be half my problem.

To be fair here, I tend to not do well on antidepressant type meds. But for me... this stuff was awful. I took one in the evening, slept almost 2 solid days, and then blacked out while walking down a flight of stairs the same evening I woke up. I stopped taking it. This is probably not super...

Hey, thanks. Free is good... I will give that a go tonight. Feels like I am in for another sleepless one.

I have forgiven my bio dad. Actually, he and I are now in contact and I am reuinited with that whole side of the family. It is a good thing. At some point I decided his "sentence" had been served and made tentstive contact a couple years ago. I thought I had healed from this. But now I am...

I do have a T. We have talked about the assault 6 months ago, and are working on that. I really briefly brushed over this in my first meeting with her... took 2 sessions just to catch up on various highlights from growing up. Now, while working on this one... this bit is coming up. Also a time...

I could really benefit from some input here. This is really tough for me, but here goes. I grew up being told about how my biological father molested me as a toddler. About how he beat my mother, locked me in a room for days at a time, and eventually tried to kill us by piling snow up on a...

Thank you everyone. I actualy just got the PTSD diagnosis about a week ago. It helps in a way, knowing were to focus my research on, where to go for help. I hadn't realized before this what I was dealing with. Joined the forum the same day. I have missed a ton of work, and now I am realizing...

Sounds like I should bring this up with my T. Add that to the list... And I am pushing myself, but then again my assault happened over 6 months ago and I am still a trainwreck. This is taking too long. I have lost too much of my life to what others have done to me and I need to get over this...

I am in CBT after sexual assault. We have talked a good deal about my abusive upbringing, and on one hand I feel like I have made some progress. On the other, I feel caught in an avalache. There is so much here to sort out. Things that I have never forgotten, and then things that I have all...

Oh geeze... the alert came up, and I instently felt a flash of anxiety when I saw my post had been quoted, hoping I had said the right thing. Over here shaking my head and laughing at myself. Stupid PTSD is stupid. Really sorry to hear that. :/ Mine was childhood abuse, and 6 months ago I was...

I do not panic over texts, but do constantly fret over whether or not I am a burden on people, or if I have done something to make my partner mad, etc etc. I think it comes from the same place... I assume your PTSD stems from abuse? Mine does. I am pretty sure it is a self worth thing. Our...

I_will_recover, it makes sense and I think it is on topic. Also, I am really sorry you are having a hard day. I appreciate you taking the time to try and help me, even on a day when you yourself are struggling. Thank you. I think I get it... like, being told by people to just get over it, let...

Eh, maybe. In my hometown, they would have been all over this before they legalized medical. Still, phoning it in means documentation. It can help.

Big hugs. I am sorry you are going through this. I've just started to find my own self worth again, took 6 months of CBT but I am getting there. Slowly, but some progress. I get it though... when I felt like everything that ever made me strong was gone I was so lost and scared. Still...

Hhhmmm, good point. After my last session, T talked about some other stuff that is more helpful to me now. Will focus on those for now, and revisit thought stopping now and again to see if it is helpful down the road. Thanks for the input.

Glad that the stop command thing helps your flashbacks. Hmm, maybe if I tried that in context with mine... may help me more if I can train myself to replace those thoughts with something else. As for counseling... I understand. For me, growing up there was so much negative stuff for me around...

Hey, you are allowed to have emotions. Anger, bitterness, and resentment included. Instead of trying to fight it, which I don't know about you but that never works for me, maybe try aknowledging and accepting it for what it is and remind yourself you are allowed to feel those things? I think...

Indeed we are. What we have been through would completely destroy a lot of folks. Yet, here we remain. Still fighting. For ourselves and for eachother. We are going to get through this, if only because we are just to strong and stubborn to have it any other way.

I feel you. I really do. 33, and still struggling. And just when I get to the point where therapy is starting to help, I lost my job. Today. Now, not sure what to do. But still... going to tell you some of what my therapist told me last night. I know you have heard this before, but THIS IS NOT...

Bisexual, lean more towards woman. My loving partner, my rock, is a transgendered woman. I have complex PTSD from childhood trauma, made exponentially worse from sexual assault 6 months ago.

I have only had this with counselors and mental health stuff, so limited ability to help. But, I can say having someone you trust and feel safe with there with you helps. Maybe make a physical list of your preferred anxiety battling tools before hand so it is fresh in your mind, and just keep...

Thanks. My T brought up a lot of good points. We discussed my struggle with suicidal ideation, and what she said made so much sense. I grew up in a household where I was made to feel utterly worthless, as a younger teen my stepfather would tell me whenever he could to kill myself. Just... what...

Yeah, no. Just, no. I live in a legal recreational state and am about as liberal and open minded about pot as you can get without going full on granola crunch about it. They need to take that stuff outside. Period. Sure, it is no where near as harmful as other drugs, or tobacco for that...

Wow. Reading this was kind of a jolt for me. That kind of response your Aunt gave you... just like my mom. Ditto on getting legal help. Reach out to local agencies, maybe there is something out there that could help you on this. Scout86 is right in that you shouldn't hope that things will get...

But, something. Started journaling, had a really productive session with my T and starting to feel a vague flicker of hope again, that the person I used to be before the assault is still in there somewhere. Oh, and this big dude dressed just like some droog out of Clockwork Orange walked by my...