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I'm not so much into modification as I am other forms of socially acceptable self-mutilation. I started collecting tattoos. I have two so far, and my only real motivation for finding meaningful employment is being able to afford more tatts.

I have a large collection of weapons. I also have a strong self-imposed rule that states I never touch my weapons when I'm unstable. I've only had to lock my guns up and give my brother the key to the safe 2 or 3 times in my 15 years of dealing with PTSD symptoms. As long as I continue to take...

Boy do I feel this one. At the tender age of 35 I'm STILL trying to find something I can make a living doing, since my parents' idea of "training a child" was grooming me for full-time ministry (which I no longer have ANY desire to do...super-trigger!). I'm very angry with them for not teaching...

I know my T does sessions by Skype, but only for specific reasons. He's told me he has a client in England who does sessions by Skype, and I've had to request phone sessions before, so I think he'd do Skype for me too if needed. Its available, just depends on the T. Ask around, research, Google.

Its pretty rare for me to cry around other people, even T. I always cry alone. Of course its something we're working on, and I almost cried in front of him a couple of sessions ago, but instead I just, as he put it, "leaked a little". There is a great pool of sobbing tears just waiting for the...

I'm always armed. I used to have a Concealed Carry permit, but I let that lapse when I became too suicidal to handle my guns. I'm better now, and my family has lots of firearms in the house, so we always have something handy around. However, I'm NEVER without my pocket knife, a 4" blade...

Self-defense classes can be very empowering. I used to teach one, but I geared it more towards women and children who had already been assaulted. I turned my classes into support groups basically, with everyone reframing whatever attack they dealt with. They learned specifics on how to get out...

I must admit, I was living with a guy who did this to me, under the guise of "training" (he was my Martial Arts Instructor and I was his top-ranked student). Even though people told me he was bad news, I wouldn't listen until the damage got to a point where I could NOT be in his presence without...

Hmmm...that happens a lot to me too. If I get quiet, he'll take something from one of my emails, or I'll just fill him in on something bothering me even if its really petty. Sometimes if I'm doing REALLY well, we'll go to the office dojo for some kata practice or do some tablework so the...

I get triggered similarly. I spent several years unable to eat without extreme nausea and near-vomiting due to untreated anxiety, and my parents didn't believe in getting help from doctors at the time, so between low thyroid in my early teens and this eating issue, food is a problem. To this day...

Sounds like dissociation to me. Happens all the time around here. If they're a good therapist, they'll understand. Just tell them either by email or next session what happened (how you don't remember), and why (extreme grief/shock/emotional...something). If this person is worth anything as a...

Sounds to me like you have a flaky therapist. Any chance of finding someone better able to be stable? Working with trust and attachment issues is difficult if not impossible for a flaky or busy therapist.

Oh, boy...do I have a take on this one! I was raised in a religion that demanded nothing but positive words, thoughts, and actions. If you didn't say, think, and do things that lined up with the Bible (G-d's Word), then you were never going to get anywhere in life and the fact that God won't...

Dangit, on my phone and it posted before I was done.... Was going to say that there are times (very rarely) that I have to email him almost every day between sessions, and some times I don't email him at ALL. It just depends on the situation I'm in. He understands that, he reads everything, but...

I hear ya on this one. My T is well-known to NEVER answer an email quickly. Texting gets faster responses, but I can only use that when its an absolutely urgent (i'm in crisis kinda thing). I've just gotten used to the fact that an email will not be answered on weekends, or before 24 hours have...

Wow. My T does sliding scale, and I see him at the most discounted rate he offers. I always give him an extra $10, he puts it towards mat fees for one Aikido class with him a week as part of my therapy. So his full rate is $125, I see him for $65, and $10 goes for the Aikido class once a week. I...

I know the moment I lost my ability to feel emotions, in the middle of my time in the worst hell. I remember the moment something "broke" in my brain and I lost my ability to find words, as well as being engulfed in apathy, while during intense triggering stress at school. I know the event...

Sounds to me like this new T isn't a good fit for you. Go with your gut instinct when in doubt. If you find yourself thinking they won't be helpful and you can't get in to see them often enough to meet your needs, then you will be frustrated and your healing will be stunted. If you can find...

Talk about relating...seems every time I find a way to move forward just a little bit, I get knocked back to square one each and EVERY EFFING TIME!!! Most recently I not only got flooded out of my apartment and had to move back in with my parents, but I lost the first and only job I've ever had...

What Ronin said... I have to deal with this one a LOT! It is better if I just do what I know to do and quit trying to make excuses or feel things while doing it. Make the new pattern first, then analyze. Easy to say, incredible difficult to do! I have all kinds of things I SHOULD be doing that...

My therapist is a male, and I'm female, and we hug at the end of every session. He's an Ego-state therapist who does energy healing and TCM as well as other trauma-related therapies. I will never forget the one session he held and rocked me for about 20 minutes just because I expressed a very...

Start over from ground zero. I'm wondering if the brace work hurt him in some way, which is why he started reacting to the word? Or did he always react thusly? Skip training for a couple of days and work on re-establishing a good relationship. Stay away from ALL his triggers and just let him be...

I would be a hot mess if my T disappeared like that, especially knowing he was in the hospital! If I don't hear back from him within 48 hours of asking a question, I tend to obsessively think he dropped dead (kind of like the hypnotist in "Office Space"). I'm actually attached to this T, so I...

I'm on the spectrum too (ASD-1, formerly known as Asperger's). I didn't realize it until just a couple of years ago, but I've had PTSD for at least 15 years. My T thinks all my symptoms can be explained by PTSD, but the Aspie-ness reframes my childhood and suddenly issues I've had my whole life...

It was over a week and a half, and no callback. I should have called her again, but was super-busy with school and highly stressed. Ugh...this is so hard! I never had this problem with anyone else before...but then, I never have to cancel either. Thanks for the feedback everyone...looks like I...