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LiketheMouse

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I'm realizing that part of my issues stem from the constant struggle to survive. I'm always looking for my path, I work really hard and then inevitably something happens that completely changes my plan. Life's rug has been pulled out from underneath me so many times, I'm exhausted.

I am a survivor though, so of course each time I try to pick myself up and carry on, only to have it happen again. I don't have much of a support system, as it's filled with people who find my illness inconvenient for them.

I'm tired of this cycle in my life, anyone else dealing with this feeling of Charlie Brown about to kick the football? Over and over again?
 
I often feel this way, too, even while having a good support system in place, and even on the best of days. Perhaps it's the underlying feeling of knowing all things I rely on externally can/will eventually be gone at any given moment. F'n fear never loses the hold it has on my heart, it seems. I can also self-sabotage and talk myself out of more things than anyone else ever has a chance to. Cheers to survivin' and forever strivin' for some serious thrivin'. May we all find a comfortable groove.
 
Talk about relating...seems every time I find a way to move forward just a little bit, I get knocked back to square one each and EVERY EFFING TIME!!! Most recently I not only got flooded out of my apartment and had to move back in with my parents, but I lost the first and only job I've ever had that made me able to live independently. Now I'm STILL living with my parents at the age of 34, no job, no car, and wondering where to go from here. However, I've already taken then steps necessary to keep moving, to find a way out again, and hoping something pans out for a change! Its time for something GOOD to happen to me for once! And you too! Good luck, keep fighting...like that line from the Bon Jovi song, "Livin' on a Prayer"...ya live for the fight when that's all that you got!
 
I'm realizing that part of my issues stem from the constant struggle to survive. I'm always lookin...
I don't play football, so no.... hihi.

But I do know that life has changed on this planet. People have changed on this planet. What used to be a civil world simply is no more. The daily struggle is a sure sign of evolution.... not a good evolution.

I have learned to be flexible, even though that can be very very tough. However, I think what bothers people is the most that when they lay out a plan that it can happen that the plant has to be changed, or placed within a different time frame. And that is what is happening often to a patient with PTSD, realizing that often I am unable to do both.... pursue my business dreams and deal with PTSD at the same time. Then I have to focus on this awful condition again until I am well enough to focus on my business plans.

I never mix up my business plans with my private plans and will always refuse when people attempt to explain business plans with private plans and when they attempt to make someone believe that a business is like a relationship and vice versa. Such people are some sick puppies alright.....
 
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