I Miss Therapy

[trying2movefwd]

So I started two years ago with a counselor I really liked, but she didn't feel like she was really able to help me. I got a second therapist who was amazing at helping me, but she was several miles away and costed too much money for my budget so now I have another new therapist covered by my insurance I've only had a few sessions with her she seems okay, but I'm not sure.
Anyway I just caught myself day dreaming about therapist 1 and therapist 2 like if I had counseling sessions with them, how much more open I was with them. Daydreaming about what I'd tell them. 2 different daydreams. Why am I doing this? Is it normal?
I feel like my new counselor will be the least helpful. I am supposed to see her every two weeks, but she is so booked it's been more like every three weeks. I'm surviving okay but I still have days I'd like a therapist to know about like the other day I was struggling with S/I. The day before that when I had a panic attack. Three weeks out I may forget about these days. Is it important for me to keep track? If I having a good week the week I see my therapist but my week before was awful do I tell her? I used to have counseling every week. My old T wouldn't have allowed me to go more than 1.5 weeks without a session saying that I am the kind of person who needs to be seen weekly. I guess I am just frustrated. I miss my 2nd T a lot! This is causing me to even miss my first T. I just wish I could have kept one of the first two.

 

[Eagle3]

Sounds to me like this new T isn't a good fit for you. Go with your gut instinct when in doubt. If you find yourself thinking they won't be helpful and you can't get in to see them often enough to meet your needs, then you will be frustrated and your healing will be stunted. If you can find someone else, I would suggest that.

It would absolutely be important to inform the new T either by journal entry or email (if they allow it) that you had a troubling/stressful/bad day! They need to know this information in order to know how to help you and what kind of support you need! Go in to your sporadic sessions armed with journal sheets and status reports on yourself and they may realize you need more than just one session every 2-3 weeks.

Good luck.