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I went for a walk down to the supermarket this morning, other that ive done nothing, ive sat in my chair browsing here, IG and Twitter. I've not done any productive or proactive.

Dear Diary, Who am I to myself!! I don't see myself as anything. I don't particularly care about myself, I don't give myself the self-love and the self-care that I deserve instead I treat myself with negative thoughts and contempt. I've no sense of who I am and it's so lonely being alone in...

DD, it's been a few weeks since my last post here, I don't seem to be struggling as much now, I still have the symptoms of C-PTSD but now im learning to handle my triggers instead of my triggers ruling me. Im hoping this lasts. I don't know why now im beginning on the road to recovery. It's...

Dear diary, a few things have been on my mond these past few days/weeks/month. 1) I'd love to be a mum but if I do I'll be classed a "geriatric" what an awful term for a older mum. But I'm glad I'm not cos I wouldn't want my child to suffer due to my mental health and personal life. 2) I'm...

Dear diary, it's been a few weeks since i last posted here and I've been really struggling with my life. My mums hearing is getting worse but she won't wear her hearing aid. My other half going away for a week so ill be left alone with her, but I don't have a choice not to cope as she won't...

Dear diary, I've been thinking or over thinking about myself. There's not one thing I like about myself physically, I've had 13 of my teeth removed so I'm self conscious about smiling, eating and talking I feel worthless of friendship cos all I do is talk about how I'm struggling. I wish I...

Dear diary, so having been to the dentist today I've another reason why I hate myself. My broken tooth can't be fixed and I need to get a fake tooth attached to my denture plate. Yes, I'm 38 with a dentures.

The 7th voyage of Sinbad. Such a good film as good effects for a 1958 film.

Dear diary, things are still the same here and for the foreseeable future. People make it sound so easy when it comes to my mum. They say things like "just tell her" "don't let her dictate you" and I feel like saying it's NOT THAT EASY, you haven't had 30+ years old been worn down to nothing ...

Dear diary, my mum has and still is horrible towards and verbally abuses me (idiot/misery )are the common names. It still bothers me after all these years. I mean if I am a "misery" im only taking after her sometimes nasty attitude towards me. I can't do a house chore without her moaning at...

It's hard to admit this and I've not told anyone about what I'm about to say. So here goes. If things haven't changed in 2 years, I've been considering suicide, just after I've turned 40.

Dear diary, another ok day, my tooth has been hurting. For some reason atm I feel all panicky and on edge and that's causing me palpitations. I'm trying to relax and do a hobby but its not really working.

Dear diary, feel better than I have done these last few days, it's just the tiredness and the inability to feel rested on the morning. I've been suffering from my impacted tooth for a few days and the pain is worsening. I've also been feeling very angry towards others and especially to myself...

Dear diary, it's not fair. All my family/friends, are living their best life, getting married, getting a job ,going on days out and adventures and here's me like a hermit. I know I shouldn't let it bother me but it really does. I'm tired of been left behind. I wish I wasn't here.

Hi everyone, I'm not gold at the moment, I'm in the precipice of self-imploding and one more little thing and I could snap. I've SH today just in order of some relief (I found none). I can't even do that right. Sometimes I wish I wasn't 'me'. I keep having bad dreams that stay with my throughout...

Well, I had my phone call and they recommended trauma therapy, I'm just waiting on another phone call for more details.

@Survivor3 I'm sorry to hear that. Hope you got the support you wanted/needed. This will be the 2nd tome Thank you. I might just do that. Thing I'm just anxious about what shell ask me.

It's IAPT with the nhs. Xx

There's only one word to describe me today and for the last few days and that's worthless. I feel like I'm not believed.

Hello everyone, I'm due for a phone call assessment on Friday with my local therapy service to see what help I need. Is there any pieces of advice you can give me??

It's with a mental health clinician local to my town. X

Hello everyone, I've a phone call assessment next week and when first had one a few years ago it was filling forms in. But can they actually diagnose cptsd just by feeling in forms???

Dear diary, feeling pretty low and vunrerable today. Hope I get the phone call this week.

Is there anyone else on the forum who not by choice still live with their abusive, neglecting trauma-inducing parent/s?? See Im a full-time carer for her as she's blind and sometimes I really struggle at home.

Today's not a good day for me. I've a bad headache, Im exhausted. Hoping to hear from the my well being place this week.